peifen

2007-02-06T11:22:00.000+08:00

stress!!

haha...i should be studying now but i need some break. wahaha... so yesterday was the photo taking for the year 3. i am damn emo yesterday. i dunno why! maybe i am lacking of sleep or for some dunno what hack-care reason. this emo feelings start early in the morning. so sad! the photo-taking was okay. we ended everything early without any mistake occuring. but it is quite boring there cos everytime need to go up to collect the name tags for them. going up and down for so many times. after that, went to find gen with huiyun to buy something and we went to watch happy birthday! that show is nice but sad at the ending. but i like it!

grhhh... why must my exam falls on sat? i wanna go malaysia to buy new year goods. i miss going malaysia! i miss malaysia more than singapore. why?? cos i just hate something here. it never fails to upset me. haha...i know i am talking craps here. just ignore me!

off to study! jiayou everyone!

"DID I MAKE THE WRONG DECISION??"

2007-02-04T12:01:00.000+08:00

study, study, study!!

yesterday was fun! went out with 'the venuses'. met up with huiyun, suzanne and huihui and went over to plaza singapura to meet gen and shijuan. but shijuan came over late cos she has to work. so we went to shop first and i bought a top at baleno. haha... i am gonna wear that for new year! while shopping, we were deciding on what to eat and we keep changing. haha... at first was seoul garden then swedsen and then also many others shop. haha... but after shijuan reach, we went over to lunch at cafe cartel. The food is simply delicious... i love it! yummy yummy! after that, we went over to marina square cos gen wanna buy a long skirt. the train ride is so funny. i love taking train ride with them. we are like 'siao ding dong'.. hahaha... reached marina square and we shopped around. saw some familiar faces! haha... afterwhich, we went to eat anderson's ice cream and we ordered their family fondue. damn nice! i love chocolatesss!! it's also quite the same as swedsen. and it was home sweet home... a tiring day but it was fun! will post the photos up after getting from gen and huiyun.

exams are coming soon! starting from friday. omg! i am damn scare. my revision is not done yet. bless me! haha...

"UNDENIABLE..."

2007-02-03T10:33:00.001+08:00

what's done cannot be undone.
nothing can be done to undone it
the only solution is to accept it!!

i hate waiting for reply. it's so torturing!

when will the black and white colours of my life turns into rainbows?

2007-02-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

bless me everyone! hahaha...

today is damn slack. nobody went for els tutorial. when we went in, it's like about 10.35am and we saw mr tam sitting inside alone. so we did our tutorial for a short 25 mins and went off.. haha... dunno why we went lah! after that was 3 hours of break and we went to settle our iwd project and study crm. but the crm just can't get into my head. keep reading the same sentences! then, went for econs lecture and mr ong went through with us the crm cos he got nothing to teach for econs. then was els and mr tam told us what's the important points for the exam. after that was crm test and it's a gone case lahh. i just can't do the questions given and i was talking craps throughout the paper. i dun even know what i am writing. grhhh... but nobody to blame cos i didn't study well!

yeahhh!! tml meeting 'the venuses' cos we are celebrating shijuan's birthday! wahahah... first one to turn 19. getting older huh.. LOL...

i just hope everything goes smoothly man! i am damn bek chey in everything recently. it's like everything are not getting done in the correct way!

"I JUST HOPE..."

2007-02-01T13:32:00.000+08:00

yeahhhh!! i have finally finished my iwd project... wahahaha... took so long for me to finish lah! yesterday slept at 12 plus and today i have to wake up early to complete it. grhhh!! make my no-day-of-school same as the days of schooling. now, my eyes are feeling so swollen and watery due to the long period of facing the laptop. but the good thing is i finished it lah. haha... now,problem is how do i burn it into a disc. oh man! so troublesome lah... then i still got crm test to study. omg!

yesterday night went for the medical check-up again and the doctor injected me which is like those BCG. the whole day my hand is feeling so numb and sore. omg!! i have difficulty typing fast. hahaha...

i need plenty of rest but i think i am gonna get that when my exams finish which is like still got 2 more weekss... holidays, please come faster!

ok.. blog again tonight... hahah...

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haha...so i am back here to blog again.

i have not start studying for my crm. omg! pray hard that the things are able to get into my head within those few more hours before the test. pleaseeee!!

so, just now went to meet eileen cos she wanna buy the clothes at TM. but then there was no new stock so she didn't buy. then we went walk walk and then century square also have the same shop as TM. so she went to ask and there was a new one. and she bought it! i bought a pair of earrings at aries and also a handphone casing for my bro's hp. haha.. he's so careless lah! cannot take care well of his hp and now there are marks on it. damn ugly! haha... and dunno why he is suddenly so nice promise to lend me his phone till next tue. wowww!! hahaha...

ok...better start to study for my crm. hope everything goes well!! GOD BLESS!

"AM I LOST SOMEWHERE??"

2007-01-31T15:46:00.000+08:00

i am really very sorry.

last night something real sad happened! how i wish last night never ever come. i really hate last night. the worst night i ever had recently. just hope this won't ever happen again. everything was just a mistake! it really gave me a big, big, big shock. omg! pray hard tonight will be good... i don't wanna be disappointed again. haha... some of you might not know what i am mentioning here. but nvm! : )

so school today was the going through of the last year's econs exam paper during lecture. was very sleepy even though i slept quite early yesterday. after that was tutorial and the lecturer went through the tutorial with us. but the tutorial seems so stranger to me. oh man! exams are coming soon... arghhh! i haven't even finish my iwd project... shittie sia... still got crm test on fri! but luckily tml there's no school!! wahahaha... can sleep late and pray hard that i can finish the project and memorise every stuffs of crm.

my english 'o' level results is coming out. omg! i am damn scare now. i really pray hard i can pass! pleaseeee... yesterday was funny cos when i was on my way back home, my sis called me and say that my english result is out cos MOE sent me one letter and she thought inside was my result. and so, i got a shock too and asked her to hurry open it for me but end up, it's just the info telling us to log in to check for our results on the release date of the results. make me nervous for nothing lah!

ok... so i have promised to write down a report of 'the venuses'. haha... so as promise, here goes:

suzanne - i have mentioned about her during the previous post. wahaha... wanna know how she is like go there and see!

huiyun - the first person whom i clique with during secondary school. haha...i think we talked to each other because i borrowed a stapler from her. then we started talking. haha... she may seems quiet but nono... she is not. hahaha... she is actually quite lame and love saying jokes. haha... also same poly as me now! haha... oh ya... she is also good in music. previously was in the band and she plays the flute. now, she plays the violin and she can learn very fast! how i wish i am like her can do sight reading of the notes. haha... she is the 'lao shi' cos she is the fourth oldest. hahaha...

gen - got to know her well when we were in sec 3. we were in the same class during sec 1 but didn't talk much. she makes me most of the time to speak english in school. haha... if not for her, i think i wouldn't be speaking so much english. thanks dear! sometimes she may seem serious but she is actually very funny. making us all laugh by what she says! she is the 'lao er' in our group cos she is the second oldest. haha...

shijuan - a nice girl! she always ask me what is happening when she sense something wrong in me. haha... a good listener also. she always likes to say 'love ya'.. haha... and she likes taking photos! we shall take more this sat okay. hahaha... i miss you! so long never meet up already. ever since like last semester. but nvm, we will be meeting up this sat to celebrate your birthday! haha... the first to become 19 among us. wahahah... the 'da jie in our grp'. hohoho...

huihui - she is very helpful! always trying to help everyone of us! not forgetting how you manage everything during the chalet. haha... she can talk jokes though sometimes she is very quiet. she got a lot of lame questions for us one and she is always updated with all the hong kong and korean dramas. haha... haven meet up for long too ya! wahahah... she is the 'xiao mei' cos she is the youngest in our group. hahaha...

i wanna saturday to come fast fast!

"EVERYDAY TO BE A BETTER DAY!"

2007-01-29T20:23:00.000+08:00

someone, please kill me!!

i am damn bek chey now! i think i am gonna flunk my iwd test. dunno what's the problem but the file that i submit in, there is just so many problems. the audio and the pictures can't be displayed in the proper way. damn it! omg! it's 20% lah... i dun wanna score badly for this module. i feel like killing myself for those stupid mistakes that i make! arghhh...

so school was okay! the only thing is the iwd test that really upset me lots. law tutorial was short cos mrs lee discussed the tutorial question with us very fast. so we were let off early and while going back, i stood again in the train. hahaha... after reaching tampines, went with eileen to eat long john for our dinner. then she went to isetan to look at a clothes that she fancy and then i went to get my mouse. haha... finally got a mouse already! so i dun need to everytime pluck out the mouse from my desktop when i need it for my lappy! haha...

recently many people are like going crazy over the drama 'hana kimi'... haha... just now at popular, overheard one malay girl telling her friend that one of the main lead wang dong cheng is so cute. LOL... ya... he is indeed cute! wahaha...

sometimes, life are just so unpredictable. u won't know what is going to happen next.

ok...i am gonna get to my iwd project now! time is running out! waahaha...

bad memories please stay away from me...

"PLEASE LET ME FORGET EVERYTHING!!"

2007-01-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

stupid blogger!! i posted an entry for so long and then some error have to occur. now, i have to repost another time. haizzz...

anywayss, i finally had my hair-cut. it's like so finally! wahaha... cos i have been saying that i wanna cut hair like 2 weeks ago? haha.. then it's very funny cos mum accompanied me to cut my hair and she dun plan to cut her hair. so while i was cutting, she was sitting beside me. then there was this hairdresser who walked over and asked if mum wants a hair-cut. initially, mum say dun wan but then when the hairdresser walked away, she felt paiseh for sitting there and so she told the person to cut for her. but after that, she blamed me lah cos the person did not do a good job. haha..and she wasted $17 for the cut. wahahaha..

just now was chatting with suzanne and shijuan and they are damn funny lah.. saying those lame stuffss!! well well, i really miss them.. especially all the fun times. i miss 'the venuses'...

omg! tml schooling again... iwd test tml! pray hard that the test will be easy. the project is also due on fri. oh man! seriously there is no time cos i haven even start yet. i am always doing last minute stuffs and it's so bad okay! crm test will also be on fri. arghhh...i need some breather!

"FLY AWAY!"

2007-01-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

oh man! am i neglecting alot of people??

i dunno... but just now i happen to talk to one of my friend and she told me somthing which make me guilty! omg!! i wanna die... why must this always happen to me??

anyway, suzanne ask me to update my blog about 'the venuses'... u know what it is?? it's our new name for the six of us. we are no long moviefreaks... wahaha... wanna know why we changed to this name?? dun ask me cos i also dunno why. hahaha... suzanne say it's because she only know this planet. haha! she still ask me to do reports about 'the venuses'. oh man, i still got iwd project and law tutorial lah... hahaha... where got time?? i am scare of her now cos she likes to say things that are untrue man! Suzanne Lee, please stop this. wahaha... i will do it on wed!

ok... i needa do shopping for my chinese new year clothes but i still have no idea what i wanna wear on tat day. hahaha... i need more time!

"I NEED MORE TIME FOR EVERYTHING!"

2007-01-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

i am damn confused!! i got alot to say but i don't know how!

a whole day of school today and is real tiring. i hate friday partly because of this. but there will only be one more week of friday and this will end! school was as usual... study, study and study but the things taught seems hard to get into my head. arghhh!! exams are coming soon. peifen, buck up man! during the two hours break was so boring and we did a lot of boliao things. then hamizah sang one song which was damn nice lah! it is 'stay the same' from Joey McIntyre. wahaha...damn nice! i found it in youtube. post it up later! haha...i was so funny and asked her to sing twice cos i keep forgeting the tune. haha... sorry lah, hamizah! keep making u to repeat the songs but ur singing is good...so after break, attended our lecture and then we walked to canteen 1 to buy jap pancake. after that, we went to the karoake lounge at the sports stadium cos we wanted to join the aerobics. they told us that they will contact us again next sem. the cca seems fun!

i hate making choices cos i am not one that can decide on my own!

i saw this guy just now who look like a guy whom i saw during my malaysia trip. he is the one whom take the same tour bus as us. just now that guy that i saw when i was taking the bus home look really alike him lah. damn shuai man! LOL... i like that type of guys! wahaha...

"SOMETHINGS ARE BETTER TO KEEP UNSAID!"

Dont you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Dont you ever say
You dont like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
Youre better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cause theres nothing bout you I would change
I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Dont be afraid
If youve got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
Youll make it through

Dont change...

2007-01-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

finally, today is the end of the IAC module. haha... did our presentation and not too bad! we got a B+ but that doesn't include our delivery of the speech. hope my delivery was not bad! haha... so now, i am left with one more project which is the IWD. ahhh! exams are coming and i haven start my revisions yet. omg! hope everything will be fine.

anyway, nothing special happen today lah but it seems like nothing special happen everyday in my life! but i am just happy that we have finished our IAC projects and we did well. special credits to dewei cos he do almost everything lah. not forgetting christina and xinzhi also! i am going off to chiong my law tutorials now. wahaha... byeeee!

"I NEED MY ANGEL WHICH IS YOU*!"

2007-01-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

haa! blogging...

i am super duper emo today... why? i also dunno.

haha... just now went town after school cos we have a long break from 12-4 before our catch-up lecture for econs. we took neoprints! woo~ will upload after getting the pics. school was okay. it's just as normal, lecture and tutorial! i am really hating the damn emo mood! feel like crying lah... peifen, what's happening? haha... i know i am being lame here. who am i asking when i myself dunno what's happening to me. sometimes, i just wish the break to come faster! i want it now... haha... one more week and it will be the study week! which means after next week, we will not be going school till the day we have exams. haha... ooppss! so the chance of seeing 'him' again will be so small. grhhh... hahaha... and ya, just now in town, we found out that the type of guys that the four of us like are different. soo... hoho!

"kindness don't always begets kindness"
ya...that's true! i am not angry about anything or what... just feel that human beings are all the same! including me... haha... everything is about playing ya! being angry is just being petty huh? LOL... ignore what i am saying!

dad and mum have finally agree to let me go to the laos trip. wahhaha... after so long then they agree lah... make me persuade like siao! hope they keep their promise... :)

YEAH!! finally tml is the last day of IS! wahhh...been waiting so long for this... after tml's presentation, i will be left with iwd project only! everything is subsequently ending bits by bits!

"SOMETHINGS ARE JUST NOT BEING APPRECIATED!"

2007-01-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

i am lazy to blog...
there is just so much to do! when will the holidays ever come?
why is it that things i want is not there but those that i don't want just come unexpectedly?

"COMPLICATED!"

2007-01-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

i am dying!!

dying from doing projects!!
i hate the current moments...
i don't understand what i am feeling now. someone, please tell me!

"STRESS, STRESS, STRESS!!"

2007-01-21T10:24:00.000+08:00

konichiwa~

i need to replenish my sleep! have been sleeping at 9+pm for these two days. haha... damn early ya! cos i want my eyebag to disappear. it's so ugly!

anyway, i will start blogging on friday. it's the second day of NP open house! we attended half day of school only and after that went to help out in the open house. we were stationed at the techno fair there to pull students to do painting tiles. they can bring back the tiles after they have painted it. at first, we were so lost on what we have to do and we went up and down from the blk 34 7th floor to the techno fair 3 times. in the end, we stayed at the techno fair but we just stood there watching them paint. haha... our duty was from 2-6 but when it reach 4, we went over to the atrium to watch taufik batisah! haha... hamizah and eileen manage to squeeze to the front and taufik walked pass them. watched for about half an hour and we went back to the fair. continue to stand there till 6pm and our duty ends. so we quickly rush over to the atrium again to watch the 4 superstars! they were late and we waited so long. when they finally came, the host started interviewing them and i thought they would be singing. but NO! daren and diya went off after the interview which was like 15 mins? haha... and so, we went home after they left. can see that many people are walking away from the stage after daren and diya left. haha... but daren and nat are so shaui! wahaha... on the way home, was feeling quite sick! so listless.

saturday~stayed at home the whole day and was rotting at home! projects and tutorial are waiting for me to finish but the mood is just not there. keep watching tv! feel like going shopping but no money.. haha... manage to force myself to do 2 questions of tutorial and some research for my crm. but there's still a lot left. boohoo! what a weekend. i miss going on holidays!

sunday~staying home today to finish up every assignment! pray hard that i can finish it. jiayou, jiayou, jiayou! :)

"I LOVE SEEING THE ONES THAT I LOVE!"

2007-01-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

haha... blogging time!

i am not going to blog about school today but about SUZANNE LEE!! haha... ok! know why i am so nice to blog about her? it's because she forced me to do it. haha...

oh mine, i dunno how to start. haha... she asked me to start from the time when we were sec 1. haha... ok, so here goes:

got to know this girl because we were in the same class during sec 1. but, we did not talk till the day when the posting of the cca were out. Both of us were posted into Girls' Brigade and we were the only two girls in class who were in this cca. wahaha... soooo, this break the ice between us. haha... started talking and got to know her more. She is one of the lamest girl that i have ever known lah. she claim that she is the principal of the lame school! haha... so if anyone out there wanna hear lame stuff, can go find her ya. haha... but truely, she is one nice friend, treating everyone nice though sometimes, i am bullied by you, but i know you don't actually mean it. that's just meant to be a joke. haha... so ehem ehem, please treasure her hor. LOL... if not beware of us MFS. haha... sounds violent? but we are not! till here, if you don't know who suzanne is, i will post her pic up later. LOL...

anyway, wanna know who the rest of the MFS is? haha... they are the other four besties, huiyun, gen, shijuan and huihui. thank god for having known all of you! every single one of you make my sec school life filled with colours. love ya all lots!

not forgetting my poly friends. tinghui, eileen and hamizah! i love life in poly because of you all! i enjoy every moments that we spend in school especially during tutorials and breaks. hahaha! we have two more semesters and we will be graduating. it's really fast! love ya all lots too!

wahaha...treasure you all lots! muacks:) work hard in life and find all ur true love soon!

"SOMETHING WHICH I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR IS STILL MISSING!"

PHOTOS:

me and suzanne

the six besties

my poly darlings

2007-01-16T12:06:00.000+08:00

blahblahblah...

i am sick!! boohoo~

now in school blogging cos i am having 2 hours of break. wahahah... just had my law lecture and waiting for my crm class.

anyway, yesterday didn't blog cos i slept at 9+pm. haha... that was consider the most early sleeping time that i have. school was okay. had els practical and lecture, iwd and law tutorial. was damn tiring. went to pass up my econs project and so now left with comm toolkit and iac. butbut, yesterday was told that we have to also do project for iwd. haiz... but school term is ending. soooo....

mentioning about comm toolkit! oh man, the day after tml will be my presentation. WTH!! i dun feel like presenting. just let this get done with fast

i have decided to save money and buy a new phone for myself. haha.... i dun wanna everytime beg my brother for his phone. sometimes, i just sense some biasness from my mum. wahha... i dunno lah!

"WHERE IS MY YOU*?

2007-01-14T15:59:00.000+08:00

hahaha...

decided to change my blogskin. i like this blogskin so much. but then i dunno what happen to the archive part. it can't display well. guess will be taking out the archive from my blog.

the weekend pass so fast.. tml starting school again. haiz! law and econs project still undone. hope the week ahead will be much better.. god bless!

i am so bored now but i am just too lazy to touch my assignments. lazy!

blahblahblah...

I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

"UNEXPLAINABLE FEELINGS!"

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urghhhh....super duper unfair!!

mum bought the 5300 phone for brother. boo~

last time when i say that i want that phone, she say that it is too expensive cos it cost $400+. but now, my brother get to trade in his motorola phone for the 5300.. arghhh... i am so, so, so jealous! haha... i am gonna kope the phone when he is not using it man. so looking forward for that phone and now i see it at home but it don't belongs to me. sobsob! hmphhh... i am going to negotiate with him to let m use that phone for some times in a week. hahaha... hope that he decide to change to another phone model so i can use the 5300. LOL...

i think i am getting sore throat! shit lah... terrible feelings. my throat is feeling so dry and my assignment is still untouched yet.

"RED FACE!"

2007-01-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

yeahhh! finally got my laptop back... haha...

this morning, went acer with suzanne to collect my laptop. hahaa... suzanne is so funny. she say she have never gone to the other part of Singapore cos she is studying in TP. therefore, she wanna accompany me to go to the other end of Singapore to see. haha.. if it's me, i would want to stay home and sleep lor. LOL... but thanks a lot for accompanying me ya! haha! so after that went to have lunch and met huiyun for kbox.

we went to the kbox at cinneleisure and it sort of spoil the whole thing. it's very expensive and the service is also not very good. last time, i went kbox during weekend which is from 2-7 is about $15+. but today, was damn, damn, damn ex. the time given to us was only 2-5 which was 3 hours and it cost each of us $20.20. WTH! the reason given was just it's because today is weekend. but then why don't i encounter the same situation in other kbox places. boohoo! next time better go marine parade one. haha..

then went to heeren and far east to shop. then went to the fifth floor of far east to have our dinner. we went to a western food store to eat. the food was nice and the atmosphere there give me a feeling of those western countries. haha...

i need more clothes. i have so limited amount of clothes for poly!

"SING TO THE DAWN~"

2007-01-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

tiredddd...

haha... have not blogged for these few days cos was real busy lah.. so many stuffs was undone!

okie... tuesday, went to school and we had our crm presentation. was real nervous. i hate presentation! then went for practice till 6plus and went home. reach home at around 9pm and then had to rush my econs tutorial and comm toolkit oral presentation slide. rushed till 1+ am and went to sleep cosss the comm toolkit make me crack my brain juice till there is no more juice left. haha... i hate IS lah!

wednesday, went for 4 hrs of sch and then went acer to repair my laptop. i really miss my laptop lah! but nvm, i am getting it back tml. haha... was raining so heavily so we took a cab there. then the person say that my laptop will be ready in 2hours time so we took cab again to long john to eat and then went to jason's blk downstairs to sit. jason went home to bathe so tinghui and me sat downstairs talking and waiting for him. after 2hours, the acer person still haven call me lor. called them and they say was not ready yet. bluff me lor! so we went back sch and i decide to collect it the other day. went to library to find ivan cos he was there waiting for jason. they started reading magazine there and tinghui and me was so bored. after a while, tinghui have to leave and then followed by jason and ivan. so left me alone! haha... but went to find huiyun cos she was doing her btc project. haha... then zhenqi came to find us and then after that went with her to clubhouse for practice again. practice was not good for me! i don't know why but i just can't catch up. i am starting to lost the passion! arghhh... i am just feeling so messy. i feel like giving up but i dun wan cos like what huiyun say, i have to challenge myself into learning well. haiz! then after practice, went to eat dinner. haha... so late rite! reached home at 11plus and then rushed finish my comm toolkit again. slept at 1am again. haha...

thursday, had my IS. was suppose to have our comm toolkit presentation but in the end, the teacher postpone it to next week. i am damn scare lah! especially presenting to a class which i am so unfamiliar with. i dunno but i just dun like IS. haha...i have been repeating this statement for so many times. anyways, 3 more weeks to the end of IS. i just hope that the next week presentation our group can do well in it. please please dun make me need wear formal! then after IS, went home and rushed my law tutorial and econs project! again, i slept at 1+am.

haiyo! been sleeping so late recently lah! my eyebags are coming out. boohoo! what a torture to myself man.

sometimes, i really dun feel like going school. i dunno but somethings are always there to remind me about some sickening stuffs! arghhh... sickening life! ya...so what comm toolkit teacher have said is true. life is never fair!

"IT'S A TORTURE TO HAVE TO FACE THE REALITY!"

2007-01-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

stress up~

school today was okay! at least it was much much better than last friday. wahaha... glad to see that eileen is cheering up. so early in the morning, met one hour early to complete the econs project. luckily today no els practical so school start at 11am only. went to print pictures for our scrapbook and then went for els lecture. didn't listen during lecture because was cutting the econs stuff with eileen. so 1 hr pass very fast! then it was break and ate malay food. wahaha... then iwd and law. haha...today pass quite fast actually. so after school, went to the library to finish up econs and crm. and finally, econs project is done. butbut, there is still so much left. iac, comm toolkit and crm! oh mine! comm toolkit and crm is due this week. haiz... everything is pile up in one single week!

the train ride back just now is damn tiring! no place to sit again and i stand from dover to tampines. then halfway through the trip, there were this 3 person coming in and they stand around me. they were chit chatting so loud till i can hear what their conversation was about and the topic they were chatting about was damn funny lah. i was there controlling myself not to laugh but it was so difficult lah...i hate controlling myself not to laugh! haha... but when the train reach city hall, more people are coming in and it's so squeezy. so warm making me sweat when there is air-con. then my bag was damn heavy! cannot stand it!

"VEXED UP IN LIFE AT TIMES!"

2007-01-07T11:32:00.000+08:00

hohoho...

today is sunday which means the 1st week of school for this term have ended. 4 more weeks of schooling and then 2 weeks of study and exam and it will be our 8 weeks of holidays. woo~ i dunno why but i am so looking for the holidays now.

so yesterday, started off with doing projects. finished most of it and now left with the decorating of the scrapbook. i did something so blur yesterday that almost spoiled the whole thing. oh man! i dunno why i am so blur that i pasted the wrong info at the wrong page and it was two times lah. eileen and jason must be pissed off by me lor. haha... but luckily with the help of them, everything was settled and went off well again. arghhh...i just feel so stupid. why can't i even do something so easy? toopid me! after that was home sweet home! was suppose to meet gen and huiyun yesterday for a hair cut but due to the project so asked them to go without me. most prob i will be cutting next week. haha... see how first.

today, i am so guai to stay at home. haha... that's because i have no place to go and i am so lazy. haha... so poor thing! i also have to do the comm toolkit presentation ppt. i have yet to elaborate the points for the powerpoint which i was asked to do on fri. haiz! but the problem is i don't know how to do and that's why i am now here blogging cos i really have no idea what to write for the elaboration. haha... sounds like i am running away from doing the projects. haha...yeah! i am... LOL...

after next wed, i won't be having my lappy with me for a few days. arghhh! have to go repair already! the line on the screen is becoming thicker.

"I AM SINGING IN THE RAIN!"

2007-01-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

ok...today was not good. i dunno why! everything just went hay-wired. arghhh...i am starting to hate life again. things are always going up and down like a rollercoaster. i am so tired and i hate this. what the hell am i doing here? :(

just wondering what will i be doing after 20 yrs old? haha...

"SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL WEIRD!"
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hohoho...i am back to post the snowcity's photos:

2007-01-04T09:43:00.000+08:00

i wake so early today! haha... later having IS at 3pm. haiz... i hate IS man! why must we have IS lah. eeeekk...

first day of school yesterday! had econs lecture and tutorial. inside lecture was damn cold! was freezing like mad. haha... after sch, went to library to do econs project and we ended everything very fast. haha... watched night in the museum cos tinghui got the dvd. funny especially when the statues are moving. haha... then went home and stand from clementi to tampines. so tired and was then feeling hungry so went to mac wanting to buy just a chicken burger but in the end was tempted to buy a whole meal cos someone go order fries lah. make me also feel like eating. LOL... gaining more weights ya! then slept super early yesterday cos was real sleepy lah.

tuesday was super fun! went snow city with suzanne, gen and huiyun. met at 9.30 and headed over to jurong east. inside the snow city was freezing cold cos the temperature was -5 degree celsius. though we were wearing thick jackets and gloves, but it's still not enough. haha... my mouth was so numb lah that i have to keep moving my mouth around and talk more. went for the slide which we have to sit on the snow tube and slide down. i was quite scare cos i was afraid of height and thinking back of that time when i went for the U-shaped slide at wild wild wet, i feel like backing out lah. haha...but in the end, went for a try le and we went 3 times. haha... took photos inside and the funny thing was when we queue up for the slide, there was this guy who keep on asking us to take pictures. so in total, we took 12 times cos the each time we went to queue, he will take 3 shots. haha...some pics was funny and we bought 5 pics and got one free. but was expensive lah. 1 photos $10 and the entrance fees was $14. we spent about $20+ inside. so after snow city, walked back to jurong east and was talking about the guy who took the pic for us. he looked like a taiwanese singer zhang feng qi. that guy must be so honoured lah to have four girls crazy about him ya. but i think another guy is better leh. LOL... then went over to bugis and i love the train ride back cos we were like siao cha bo laughing and laughing. we ate instant noodles for lunch cos have to budget already. went to shop and tried out clothes at OG but was not nice on me so didn't buy anything but huiyun bought a jean at bugis street. then it was home sweet home!

i wish time could turn back to last week man. because i will then be in genting today. hahaha...

arghhh...time now is 10.20. have to prepare to go school already. eeekk IS! will post the photos tonight when i am back :)

"i think i am expecting too much in life."

2007-01-01T12:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2007!

hahaha... today is the start of 2007! may this year be a blessed year for everyone. more happiness and fun!
may all wishes come true.

"MORE SURPRISES?"

2006-12-31T13:40:00.000+08:00

yippieyaya!!

less than a day time and it will be 2007! wahaha... so fast!

i am back from malaysia and i enjoyed it! i want more holidays... haha... played at genting and shopped at kuala lumpur. so many stuffs in KL and it was much cheaper. got to play this basketball shooting machine in genting which was so fun lah. last time get to play it in Singapore too but now, these machines are getting lesser or none already. the weather in genting was so cooling. the temperature there was about 16 degrees. haha... at night was so cold till i was there shivering like hell but in the morning was much okay. how i hope time will pass slower there cos memories there are always more beautiful than here. whishful thinkings yeah! ok... it seems that i somehow hate life here. and ya, maybe i do! took photos but i am too lazy to upload it here. maybe next time! haha...

i think i am going a bit crazy over earrings after i have pierced my ears. i am always looking at earrings when shopping! haha... crazy me!

thinking of projects really give me headache. projects are still incomplete and it's like due in 10 more days? but the problem is i don't know how to do. haiz... i hate projects!

ok...will end here! HAVE A BLESSED NEW YEAR EVEYONE!!

"I WISH I KNOW YOU BUT IT'S SO, SO, SO IMPOSSIBLE!"

time is meant to pass by and everything just ended within a blink
i will remember you for once entering into my life

2006-12-26T21:00:00.001+08:00

my tummy achessss!!

this morning, went to meet my IS group mates to do an interview at the christalite methodist home. it is a home for the destitutes and the social workers there was nice. we did the interview with the director and one of the social worker of the home. got to know more about the destitutes and saw the residents. got to learn alot from the director and the social worker such as having to plan well when we are young so that next time we are able to survive when we are old. so after the interview, went home and wasn't feeling quite well already then still have to take the bus 168. so long lah! about 45 mins and i was like suffering in the bus. LOL... then slept for about 3 hours and feeling lifeless just now. i can't imagine later i still have to chiong my econs project. have to write analysis for two newspaper articles lah. arghhh...

yeahhh!! tomorrow night will be setting off to genting. wahahaha... been looking forward to it for so long already. hope this holiday will be a good one. after this holiday, school is starting! haiz. back to the stressful days again especially this semester.

"I AM STILL SEARCHING FOR IT!"

2006-12-25T15:46:00.000+08:00

hohoho...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! 6 more days and it would be 2007. so fast man!!

i am now in school doing my econs project. butbutbut, we just came to find the newspaper articles and the analysis is waiting for us to do at home. arghhh... what a holiday! sorry eileen that u have to cancel ur sentosa outing because of this econs project and end up we just cutted newspaper. so sorry!! now waiting for 4pm cos i am meeting my family 5pm at marine parade to have steamboat. haha... so boring now! nothing to do now. 10 more mins to 4pm. woohoo~

i want my holidaysss! so many projects to deal with. life in poly is filled with projects. wahahaha...

ok...going off now! enjoy today everyone.

"IS SOMETHING WRONG SOMEWHERE?"

2006-12-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is christmas eve!!

today went to watch charlotte's web with gen, huiyun, huihui and suzanne. i like the movie! very nice and touching. before that, we exchanged our christmas presents but shijuan was not around with us. so long never hang out with her already. hope we can catch up before the school starts. but school is starting in one week time already. so fast lah!! holiday have just started but it's also ending soon. i am gonna enjoy myself the next one week. then after movie, shopped around and we ate subway. then went to kallang to meet my family and we went to view orchard's christmas decoration. so nice lah!! u can really feel the festive season there cos so many people crowed together and also there was many performances. woolala!!

i think i am going to put on more weight! wahahha... been indulging in so many foods this few days. in a few more hours, i will be sleeping already but can u imagine me stuffing in a whole piece of chocolate cake by myself simply because i am tempted to it. now i am so full!!

why must somethings always meant to make me guilty? i hate this feeling but it's just always there. forget it man!! i dun wanna think about it anymore. life sucks okay!

Be proud of your ideals, even if they are not completely in line with your peers'

"SOMETIMES,I WISH I HAVE NOT KNOWN YOU!!"

some pics of the day:

2006-12-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

so sleepy!!

went to a concert today which shijuan is performing in. it consists of republic polytechnic, presbyterian high school and sembawang symphonic bands. the performance was enjoyable and i like the part when one of the school played wishes and canon in d with mixture of christmas tunes. so nice lah!! i like it. then after the concert, went to vivo city and walked around. saw so many familiar faces today. wahahaha... it's like some gathering lor! so was thinking what to buy for the christmas pressie cos tml we are exchanging it. couldn't find something nice and wanted to buy chocolate one but they said that this year we are forbidden to buy chocolate. haiyo! make me keep thinking what to buy lah. hahaha... so we went to settle our dinner first at pastamania. ordered creamy chicken pasta and was quite nice but i just realise that everytime i eat at pastamania, i will order creamy chicken pasta one. haha... then after eating, chatted abit but most of the times was about band thingy so me and suzanne dunno what to say and we was quite stoning there. LOL...then shuyi, huiyun and weiwei went out to the balcony to sit sit. haha...so suzanne accompanied me to buy the christmas pressie and i am really going to be broke after buying cos one pressie cost me about $7+ already. ahhhh... oh mine! the first time buying so expensive pressie during christmas. but nvm, once in a while ma. so in total, i spend $40 over for 6 present. haha...

this few days was quite enjoyable! how i wish that everyday would be like that so i wouldn't be feeling sad because of some stupid stuffs which i also dunno what is it. something i have to learn is to be more independant! it's normal to be left to face the world alone sometimes. so peifen, u have to get used to it! people won't be there for u everytime okay:) haha... i am too tired now and my mind isn't working so well so i also dunno what rubbish am i talking now. LOL...haha...been posting a lot of rubbish feelings recently lah. hohoho...

"ARE HUMANS SELFISH IN NATURE??"

photos:

2006-12-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

finally...

i got my ears pierced. haha...pain sia. but not as pain as i expected lah. LOL...YEAH!! finally i can put on earrings already. but then i can only wait for 1 month later before i can take down the earrings that is pierced on my ear now and the earring that is on my ears now is 'orbit'. haha...it's gold in colour! nvm...i will bear with it for 1 month. LOL...

today was so free cos don't have to go back to school. the whole day was slacking around and then i go watch the hong kong show that i have rented. haha... so nice and funny lah. watched till 5 plus and went to find mum. then we shopped around to see where got help to pierce ears and also search for earrings cos we tot that have to buy our own earrings first. in the end, the person said earrings are provided but i have already bought it at perlini silver. was quite cheap cos buy 3 items got 20% discount. butbutbut, i was quite piss off with my sis cos she dropped the necklace pendant that i had bought. eeeek... that cost $8 okay. i was quite shock today when mum bought a pair of earrings and necklaces at SK jewellery for $200+. wahhh....i thought she was only joking lah but she really went into the shop to buy lor! wahhhh...

tomorrow going for shijuan's school concert! woo~ i need to buy christmas pressie tml already if not surely no time one.

"LET THIS SPECIAL MOMENTS LAST FOREVER!!"

2006-12-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

i miss monday when we have so much fun!

went back school today for the personal grooming workshop. was quite fun because of the speaker and got to learn quite a lot! then wanted to take my lappy to repair one but i didn't bring my warranty card. haha... so though of bringing it to the blk 34 to see what the technician say. but hor, today never open. omg! make me and eileen walk so far there. haha...

this holiday is really, really, really busy lor! arghhh...now i can't find time for my econs project. the crm project is postpone to next wed now. so the problem is my econs project. the holiday is now left with tml, fri and next week. but friday, i will be going for a concert lor. then next week, i will be going to genting from wed night to saturday. then tuesday, i have to do my iac interview at the organisation. monday is christmas so i doubt they would want to do and also i think the trip to snow city might be brough forward to monday if got open cos i am coming back from genting on sat which was the actual day that we have agreed to go and i am so blur to think that i am coming back on fri so can make it to the snow city trip.. ahhh...now they have to change the date all because of my blurness already. so sorry, guys! now the most headache is the econs project arrr... die sia!!

oh mine! i haven buy christmas pressie yet!! shit! if next mon we are going to snow city, then have to buy now already. ooppsss!!

i just realise that sms chatting to someone whom u have not seen before is so fun!! haha... can sms so many craps to the other party and then the reply gotten back is so funny! haha...

Many times in our lives,
we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt
by the decisions we make
and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or
what will happen, you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,
you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know,
but by WHO WE ARE.
You are special Don't EVER forget it.

Count your blessings, not your problems.
If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

"THE HURTING HEART IS IN THE MIDST OF HEALING"

2006-12-19T09:23:00.000+08:00

just came back home after accompanying eileen to her interview. but she did not went for it. it's a long story! haha... anyway, i just feel so stupid and u know why? it's because when we reach raffles place, we were searching for the interview place which was at robinson point. we walked many rounds searching for it and after about some times, eileen called the person and ask and we have to walk back from where we have walked cos we walked the wrong way. the worst thing was it was raining so heavily lah and carrying an umbrella is like no use like that. in the end, we were all drenched. then we walked back and i got a shock when we walked to the direction of the robinson point. it's because i have been to the same place before. oh mine! i am so blur can... we wasted so much time searching for that place.

then we went back and shopped at century square. i bought a covered shoes at $15+ and i am satisfied with the price that i bought cos the other time, i thought that it was $29.90. then today, i saw the price tag at $19.90 and due to christmas festive, they are now having a discount and so i got it at $15+. woo~ so many shops are having discount due to christmas coming. hahaha... it's shopping time! i am still gonna buy the giordano jacket and shorts this coming thursday.

i want my holidays!! this holidays is like so pack can! so many stuffs to settle and i dun have any free time for myself. i wanna rent the hongkong show to watch but then the time i spend outside is like more than the time i spend at home. haiz...
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hahaha...

guess what? i have not slept for more than 24 hours since yesterday already. haha...super me right! LOL... ok...it's because i went for suzanne and huihui's class chalet. they organized it but it was also for the MFS so i went for it. just came home but now feeling quite high though i have not sleep for so many hours and i am going out later again lah! woo~ haha... something is wrong with me okay! the chalet was fun but tiring cos i didn't get to sleep lah. only four beds and so many of them occupy it already so in the end i stayed up the whole night while the rest manage to catch some sleep bit by bit! the funniest part was when the whole group slept leaving me and suzanne nowhere to sleep. so we just sat down there look at each other and we was too sleepy to say anything already. but my energy came back when i listens to music. haha...and i was there highing alone and suzanne see me like i am siao like that. haha... we also saw many funny sleeping pose lah. haha... it was real funny okay. haha...

ok...wanna thanks huihui for the food provided and suzanne for booking the chalet. they really did a lot, especially huihui cos the food provided was real alot and we eat until very filling. all thanks to her indoor bbq pit if not we won't be enjoying bbq food already. but i dunno why midnight, we were still craving for mac. haha...

later meeting eileen 1pm cos she has some robinson interview. haha... hope the job she got introduced is trusthworthy. then she can earn more money already. LOL... oh ya...eileen is so nice to sms chat with me in the early morning. thanks a lot ya! :)

ok...photo times:

gen and me

the 4 of the 6 MFS

the guys bbqing

me and gen's funny faces

candid shot! haha...

me and huiyun(our hair is wet all thanks to the rain. haha...)

a proof that we can bbq okay. haha...

the 'lala'

2006-12-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

current mood: feeling bad and guilty

woo~ it's my 100th post but nothing to be happy about lah. haha...

it's 6.04pm now and guess what? i just woke up from my sleep. came home at 8+am this morning after the night cycling. i was totally shagged and many things have happened which make me feel real guilty. i am just an useless idiot okay. i don't know but things didn't go on smoothly. i am not a good student leader and the bad memories keeps on running in my head. totally off during the event and i am really sorry. the blame will always be there! dun wanna say what actually happened but things were bad during my first part of the journey. sorry to the participants and the road marshal!

but during the recee trip for the night cycling, we went in lorry and the first time sitting a lorry was real scary especially when the driver drives very fast and his turning and braking is super scary lah. so many of us squeezing inside and when he turns or brake, we will like bang into each other. and the scariest part was when we was leaving school. dunno why the back of the lorry door was not locked and all the girls was sitting near it. so can u imagine when the lorry starts moving and the door opened, all of us was shouting like mad. haha... a scary lorry experience!

guess i am not going to cycle for a long period of time now cos the memories are just gonna come back.

sometimes, i just wish that i can disappear from this world. anyway, i am just an useless idiot. the feelings of giving up on myself is very big. now, i just wish i could leave this country and go overseas to tour around and earn money to support myself. i wanna learn to be independant! things said are just so impossible for me.

"HOW GOOD IF EVERYTHING CAN JUST CHANGE FOR A SINGLE MOMENT!"

2006-12-15T09:39:00.000+08:00

hahaha...
today is the start of my holiday and know why i am so guai never go out? cos later i am having night cycling. actually planned to go kbox one but the time don't allows. nvm, we will go next time. haha... really hope the night cycling will be fun! oh ya, there will be no practice tml cos the christmas performance have been cancelled so tml after night cycling, i can sleep like a log. haha...

i am so boring now. i want to go out! butbut i am still having crm and econs project to complete. eeeiya... holiday still have to finish up stuffs!

ok...off to watch tv already and pray hard i can tahan tonight. haha... i took so long to post just this short post. LOL...

2006-12-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

finally, the common tests have ended.

butbutbut....where are my holiday moods?? somethings are just running in my head and it's not making me happy at all!

anyway, just now after els paper, went far east with hamizah, tinghui and eileen. we went into a shop that sells miscellaneous accessories for making earrings. so nice lah! i am gonna buy and make one for myself after i have pierced my ears which i think will be on sat. haha... but i am so scare that it will get infected or what cos my ears are real sensitive. LOL... pray hard it will not cos i really like earrings especially those danglings one. hohoho... after that, we went to eat dinner cos we were really hungry. we went to sakura halal chinese food restaurant to eat. the food was up to the standard lah. LOL... and hamizah can really talk craps making us all laugh like mad. haha...

today, these words ''cheer up! jiayou" brighten up my day. haha...especially when it is by a friend whom u have not seen for so long time. thank you!

ok...here are some photos:

my darlings in poly

and not forgetting my MFS darlings

MFS, we have not taken group photos for so long already...let's take more during the chalet ya. haha...

wanna know who are my loves? haha... they are:

I LIKE THEM!!
ok...i am too lazy to find more photos... will upload more when i find more nice nice one. haha...

"MEMORIES ARE ALWAYS THE ONES THAT LAST FOREVER"

2006-12-13T12:44:00.000+08:00

hohoho...

one more day and the common test will end. haha...been waiting for this moment for so long! yesterday had our iwd paper and it's okay cos many of us managed to finish in less than 30 mins. wahahaha... and today was the econs paper. omg! the paper was difficult lor. at the start, i see the mcq questions until so blur and i skipped most of it until when i finish my section B. section B, still managed to crap through. haha...but dunno correct anot. then the mcq i just tikam a bit already. last semester, the econs paper is like quite okay but this sem is soo hard. eeeeekkk! tml gonna be els and arghhh...i have no mood to study already. my mood is on play and fun now and not on studying, haha... this normally happens on the last day of test. kk...enough of common test already. haha...

i wanna get this phone but mum is not going to sponsor me. haha... i have to save myself for this phone lah. wonder how long will that be cos surely there will be other temptations one. haha...

2006-12-10T12:32:00.000+08:00

2 more days to the first common test paper and i am not quite prepared yet. i am now quite scare of my econs cos i don't really understand. just hope i can crap through it and get a passing grade. yesterday, went studying with hamizah at tampines library. so nice of her to come all the way from woodlands to study with me! thanks gerl. we studied els and i just realise that it's so nice to study in the library cos it's so quiet. managed to memorise a bit of the formula! just hope the things that i memorised come out in the test paper. pray hard!!

oh ya! congrats to suzanne. haha...cos finally her wish came true! wahahaha...he better treat her well! she is real daring as a girl lah! seldom see a girl who is so daring like her. if it's me, i will not do what she have does. haha...really peifu her! but why are some people so dilly dally? why can't they just admit? people already say out already but then they are still making them wait for so long before giving a definite answer. hahaha...

i am so looking forward to the day when the common test is over. i wanna go singing. haha... and i am so looking forward to the genting trip. woohoo! but before that, still have the night cycling trip, rushing up to finish about 3 projects, practice for the christmas performance. oh mine! this term break is so packed up with stuffs. haha...there's only two weeks! so not enough.

"jiayou to everyone taking their common test!! =)"

2006-12-08T21:09:00.000+08:00

the true self!

suddenly, i just have no feeling to blog. my mind is so block up that i don't know what to say. haiz! common test is just a few days away and i am still not so prepared. people around me are starting to revise already but i am still thinking that there are many more days for me to revise when actually there is not. arghhh...jiayoujiayou!! the motivation must come.

today was actually quite tiring. in fact, school for me is tiring everyday. haha... today is the last day for this term. after that will be the common test week and then term break. next term when we come back to school, it will be 2007 already. time really pass so fast! a few months back, we have just entered ngee ann poly but now 2006 is gonna end and next term will be the last term that we will have for 1st year. after that, we will be in 2nd year already...woo!! so fast. today, the first two lesson was law and els tutorial. the law tutorial is much relaxed now because we have completed our common test. i think the stressful law tutorial is gonna start next term. but it keep us motivated and practice makes perfect yeah! haha... then we had our lecture! for econs and els, the teacher teached a bit then they said that they will give us tips on the common test. they claim that they were giving us tips but then it is like no difference like that lor. haha... the worst thing was from the els teacher. we thought that he was giving us tips but then in the end, he told us that he also haven see the paper yet. my first reaction was like 'huh, then how u know what questions are coming out'. then he said i also dunno but i am telling u all the important points that are important. eh...so that means there is no tips at all lor. haha...

i really hoped someone could help me in it but there was no one there. it's really scary to do things alone but what to do? it is said that it's better to depend on oneself but then when things are really beyond what u can do, there is really nothing that can be done to change it. or i should just say that i don't dare!

why are things not going smoothly for me? so many things are bothering me! i see many people living their life with no regrets. but me? there is just so many stuffs left undone for me. i have to clear up everything bits by bits. i regretted everything that i am doing in life!

oh mine! people are telling me that i look sad. actually they are true lah. i am really sad these few days. but i am really showing out meh? shit shit! haha... i want to stay happy but it's so hard to achieve especially when.... haha...forget it! i don't wanna say.

woolala... haha...my feeling for blogging is back now! so random ya my feeling. LOL!!

"IT WOULD BE GOOD IF MIRACLES DO APPEARS!"

2006-12-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

just wanna see you~

oh mine! last minute work is so stressed up. it's even harder when you are panicking and not knowing what to include in your work. all thanks to comm toolkit that my group are so struggling to get the information paper done. i feel like sleeping already!

projects are so piling up! the term break are coming soon but then it is like so packed up with stuffs everyday. i want my holidays but not with the projects accompanying me. i want to sleep, shop, watch tv and enjoy myself! okie... i got to work extra hard for my common test now. i have been telling this to myself so many times but the motivation is still not there yet. my motivation will comes only when _______________. hahaha... i just can't concentrate in studying. nono...i have to tell myself that i can do it! i have to pass. i don't wanna come back for re-test. i have to do well! jiayou jiayou! all of us jiayou together. haha... okie...i need some words of encouragement to make myself motivated. haha...

my moods are slightly better but still not in the so good form yet. i want to make myself happy but it's so hard. it's indeed difficult to admit when u are happy and when u are not. even if u are happy, it's just for that few moments and after that the unhappy moments will soon appear. then u will just tell urself that u are never happy though u just had some happy moments a while ago. cos in life, unhappy moments occurs more times than happy moments rite? haha....what rubbish am i talking? i am just too tired that i am typing those stupid feelings here. LOL...

the tiredness are never ending but i have to hold on. i know that one day things are gonna change and i will be happy one of this days. hehe...

setbacks are bound to occur in life but it's gonna make us grow stronger. haha...i saw this in one of my friend's nick and it's like so true.

"WISHES DO COME TRUE AND I MISS YOU SO!"

2006-12-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

i am back from school cos class ended at 12pm today. totally moodless! i also don't know why. this few days i have just been so moodless when in school. so terrible!! moody days hurry pass can. i hate being like this in school cos i am just like showing people attitudes. i don't mean to but it just suddenly shows out. sorry peeps!

anyway, today had econs lecture and tutorial and the lecturer teached us a new topic but i am so sleepy! wednesday is good cos class ended at 12pm but then it starts at 8am. it's so tiring can especially when i reached home at around 11pm yesterday cos got practice. my mind today was surrounded with the word 'sleep'. i can even sleep in bus when my destination is just a few stops away. i need more sleep. the strange thing is in the past, i am not so tired in school even if i sleep at 1+am. but yesterday i slept a little early at 12am but i am feeling extra sleepy today. the strange body system!

yesterday's practice for me was not so good! we practiced the christmas song and it's like so difficult to catch up. the rhythm is quite fast and i dunno how to sight read ar. haiz... so scare now cos the performance is like in a few more weeks from now and i can't really play well!

okok...off to my afternoon nap. i have to sleep if not i am gonna break down! have to start revising for the common test already. i need more motivation to study well!

"THINGS ARE GONNA DISAPPOINT YOU WHEN YOU EXPECT TOO MUCH OF IT!"

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the miserable life!! i hate crying but tears just topple now. it feels so pain when crying but what to do? things are suppose to turn better but then it never. everything just became worst. i hate my life and why am i here? haiz...these irresponsible words are appearing in my mind again. the painful life and the painful me!

2006-12-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

well well! school today was as per normal but it's just the feeling that is bothering me. my moods are so ups and downs and i don't know when my moods is changing. haiz....that's what they call mood swing. just realised why i am getting this mood swing and it's because i am a female. haha... okok...stop this craps lah.

anyway, first lesson was els practical and we were asked to do the practical individually. quite fun cos it was just playing around with all the wires and then see if it will result the lamp to light up anot. then after that was 1 hr of lecture and it was totally meaningless being inside cos i don't know what the lecturer was teaching lah. it have been like this since school starts and of all the topics taught, i only know chapter 1 and that was during secondary school that i learnt. OMG! common test is just next week and i have to pass it cos i can't afford to spend one more sem learning the same thing and i know that i also will not understand what i am learning. after that was break and we celebrated jason's birthday. tinghui and the rest have previously gone to king albert's park to bought a cake for him. he was seriously sabotaged cos they bought creams and sprayed it on him. looks scary but fun! haha... 1 hour of break pass fast and we had iwd and law tutorial. time passed quite fast today and i am quite glad! haha...but then still have the meeting to attend and it was to brief us on our groupings for the night cycling. i am quite worried about my grouping now cos i don't know why but i just don't feel good. hope all the predictions are so wrong. haha... the meeting was short and sweet cos i think chinwei also can't stand being inside a small room full of people. it was so squeezy and stuffy lah!

i think i have to watch what i am saying now already. LOL... everything i am saying is so dangerous. haha... suzanne, next time don't ask me again can? haha...

glad to see some things are changing. hope this don't change anymore!

"IT ACTUALLY MEANS A LOT!!"

2006-12-03T15:02:00.000+08:00

Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you
Know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
Would you even care
I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you

a new day and i am just feeling so sucky. i feel like giving up! everyone seems to dislikes me and i think i know why. i need a good cry out and i think i am gonna watch one litre of tears to make me cry. haha... but have to finish law first. i really need to watch!!

"IS THIS THE END OF THE WORLD?"

2006-12-02T18:44:00.000+08:00

today, went town for the charity drive! there was so many people and when we were walking along the pathway to ngee ann city, we saw cameramen. haha...o of course they was not filming us lah. they were just filming some variety show there lah. LOL... but it seems to be so fun! after the drive, went to eat mac cos we were hungry. then went heeren to look for jason's pressie. his birthday is on monday and that's when he will not be laughed for being the only 16 in class. haha... bet he's gonna get his birthday bash. LOL! yup, so after buying, we went over to marina square to find ivan cos he is working over there. he looks so smart in his uniform but we left after a while cos we were like interrupting his work. so walked around a bit and we left after 30 mins. time pass quite slow today and i was so surprise when huiyun told me that it was just 3pm when we took the train. i thought her watch spoil lah. haha...

uncle lended us two korean show. one is da chang jing and one is jin san shun. i want to watch! i need to find more time for leisure. haha... i thought that there will be no more law tutorial to do till next term since we have already finished our law common test. but i was wrong, we still have to do lah and it is two tutorial this time. arghhh!! i need to focus more on my econs and els already. this two modules seems so alien to me now.

"WHEN WILL THE ANGEL APPEAR?"

2006-12-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

i am back after not blogging for a few days. haha... recently is just so busy lor! everyday coming back home late and then have after a while have to sleep already. woo~ hope next week will be better.

wanna know why i am always coming home late? haha...tat's because on tuesday, stayed back school to study law with tinghui, jason and ivan. but in the end, didn't study much cos it's so hard to concentrate. then wednesday is the law test till 6.30 and then after that there was practice. our practice days have change to wednesday already. haha... so went back and ended at 8+! i realised that i have not been practising for a long time till i kind of fogot how to play le.. haha... then yesterday, after IS, went to BE clubhouse to meet eileen. she and shijie was decorating the cups for their charity so helped them abit with it. then, it is today! haha...went for the bbq night but was quite boring there. so stuffy and smoky! didn't eat much because before the bbq was so hungry that i went to atruim to buy rice to eat. so down there just bite a bit here a bit there. LOL... school is becoming to be more stressful!

aren't humans' thinking all the same?? the way they react in some cases are the same. it's not just from some particular types of people. haha...nvm! i am just talking rubbish. maybe i am treating people in the wrong way. eeeeekk... life sucks lah!

if you have something to say to someone just say it before you regret!! that's the most difficult part that people experience in life.

please don't speak to me using the indirect way next time cos it's kind of freaking me. haha...

"EVERYTHING JUST SUCKS!!"

2006-11-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

somethings are just so disappointing...

i find that i am always in the wrong. the guilty feelings just never fail to come!! why oh why?? life is becoming to be so miserable. i hate life even more! people say that life have their ups and downs but i don't see the ups in my life. most of the times, i only see the downs.

things are piling up even more this week.. so many test to go through and the crm project is due tomorrow. so stressed up!! the law test is still waiting for me to study. omg!! everything is squeezed in a week.

so happy to see you though it's only once a week!! hahaha... because of you, monday don't seems so blue. haha...

this post seems so weird to me! LOL...sorry guys! haha...i am just so tired and i am beginning to post rubbish feelings here.. haha... i better go off to study law!! arghhh...hope tml crm's presentation will be good!!

"SEEING YOU BRIGHTENS UP MY LIFE!!"

2006-11-26T16:11:00.000+08:00

my butt and leg are aching so much!!

yesterday reach home at 6plus after the night cycling trip! so tired and i almost gave up lah.. the first time having night cycling was indeed tough. i think i am gonna hate cycling for dunno how long already. haha...i dunno how am i going to survive on the actual day. how can a beginner cyclist leads a group of 10? LOL... the suay thing was i fell down in a kerp at a part of the zebra crossing. i didn't know that i was bleeding until zhirong told me. haha...but thanks winnie for applying the antiseptic for me. then at the endless road there, there was some kind of crash because of me. my brake was so sudden that the guy behind me can't brake in time so he banged into me and then the other guy behind jumped off his bike to avoid the crash. omg! i feel so guilty lah... i dunno why but when i brake, it is very sudden one and i was so afraid when there is people cycling behind me lor.. i am really doubting whether i can be the student leader during the actual day of the night cycling anot. but it's amazing that i didn't faint halfway or what. haha...

just now dad drive us along the road of mediacorp and the house there was really nice...i also dunno what to describe lah! haha...but there was mostly the rich staying cos the bungalows there was soo superior type. i like it alot! how i wish i am staying there..LOL...how i wish, how i wish, how i wish. haha...

there are so many stuffs this week. it's like never ending and i hate it lah.. why can't the holidays come faster?? i want my holidays now!!

sometimes the attitude that people give are so cold that i got a feeling they don't like me. i dunno but hope they are not!

"I LOVE CAR RIDES!!"

2006-11-22T21:05:00.000+08:00

i am so happy now because i just found out that comm toolkit lesson is cancel which means i don't have to go to school tomorrow. woolala... hope there is no make up lesson. please don't make me happy for nothing. i am so worry about this module cos we have to give a 2 mins speech in front next week and i think tml will be a practice to train us. i hate presenting especially in front of a class which i don't really know except my group mates. guess next week i will be worrying the whole day for this speech thingy. haha... but i am just so glad that i don't have to go school tomorrow.

anyway, today had 4hours of econs and i can't get the things that is being taught into my mind. so sleepy lah!! hope before the common test i can at least get what is needed to be known into my head. then after econs, went to the night cycling booth and i find it so 'ke lian' cos there is only 1 person signing up. and when the shift is change to us, no one came to sign up. hope tomorrow will be better! sat there for 1 hour and we went to do our crm project. went to the library and went inside a empty room to do research. but my question is too broad till i don't know which is the important info that i need. hope everything goes well cos the presentation will be next week.

"AM I AN IRRITATING PERSON?? HOPE NOT!"

2006-11-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

yes! i am back from the long hours of school i had today. it's extremely long today and i feel like sleeping already. but cannot cannot, i have to find the info for my crm project first. this morning had my law lecture and it was okay! then had our 2 hours of break before attending crm. crm ended for only 1 and a half hour? i don't know but i knew that it was quite short compared to the four hours that we are suppose to have. then because of the red camp briefing, stayed back to wait until 5pm. was so boring so i went to youtube to watch videos and i found one canon in d rock version so nice. i think i will just paste the link here and if u are interested can go see! haha... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Zn5OplT4Po . and just now in class, they spreaded something that is so not true. all those are just false statements okay? haha...but i know they are just joking so that's okay lah...haha... then the briefing was to tell us what we have to do for the red camp. we were arranged to do the touring which we have to follow the secondary school students to guide them to the place that they are suppose to go. i think it's gonna be fun!! haha...

i have decided to change my blog song cos i am currently in love with the song that is playing now. haha...i love it!! it's by shania twain and i simply love the lyrics and everything. the lyrics is posted at my previous entry! thanks to tinghui cos it was through her that i knew this song. haha...

"THINGS WILL ONLY BE ON THE BRIGHT SIDE WHEN YOU GET IT!!"

2006-11-20T16:34:00.000+08:00

yeah!! i am now in school waiting for my BE society meeting. still got half more hours to go so i am now here blogging. haha...

yesterday, went to suntec cos dad wanted to see the malaysia tour exhibition. i am so happy cos i will be going to genting this coming december holidays. woolala... went to meet my brother and mum and jalan besar first because he have soccer practice. after that, went over to suntec and went shopping at carrefour. so fun! there was so many things inside and i enjoy being in there. haha...

today, school as usual! had our els practical and lecture and i seriously don't understand what the teacher is teaching. omg!! have to do self-reading on my own again.i have been saying this to myself so many times but i have never done this. haha... self-motivation! after that was internet web design and we was taught how to design a webpage. it was so fun because we learned what we normally see in blog. it is just so amazing!! haha...then it was law tutorial and we was so scare that we will be asked to answer questions. luckily, today's tutorial was short! haha...

ok...shall stop blogging here! signing off!!

"A BEAUTIFUL AWAKENING"

From this moment on-shania twain

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
From this momentI will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

2006-11-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

woo...i am so tired from doing law tutorial so i am now here blogging...haha... today, went back to school for self practice of violin. haha...enthu sia! LOL... we went for a little while cos we didn't really plan to practice one.haha...casilda was so nice to come to school early to open the clubhouse door. then after that, went to jurong point with jiaxue and huiyun to eat KFC cos they have to go to the construction site to do their btc project. and after that was going home. so tired in the train that i keep dozing off. but it is not surprising cos it's not the first time that i am dozing off. it seems that almost everyday in train, i am sleeping like a log. haha...

something funny happen to my brother just now. cos my dad drank his beer and haven wash the cup. he put the drink at the dinner table so my brother thought that that was crysanthemum tea and he went to drink it. after that, when i saw his face, i was laughing like hell lah. his expression was just so funny making me laugh until my mum and sis said that i am like a siao ding dong. haha...

sometimes, i just feel so 'out' when being with you all. maybe i just don't belong!! some stupid feelings lah...don't bother about me!

ok...back to my tutorial again!!post again tomorrow if i have finish it... haha...

"AM I A LONER??"

2006-11-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday, had my IS and things just don't seems to goes well. i hate IS alot!! we had a short skit for our IAC activites and i was so suai to draw lots and was the first group to present lah. everytime when it comes to drawing lots, my luck always don't seems to be good. haha...next time better don't buy 4D...LOL...then for comm toolkit, the teacher discussed with us about writing and he let us go early.i just realise that there will be only one more IAC lessons for this term. after that will be common test and then the two weeks break. but then it's like IAC got so much to do. we still have to do an interview and also survey. it seems so difficult!

these two days have been so busy rushing my law assignments. i really hate it lor! every thursday night have to stay up late till 2am to finish the tutorial. omg!! then friday still have so many hours of lecture. friday used to be so good during the last semester cos the modules that we having is so relaxed. but this semester, it was a bit untolerable due to the long hours of lecture in a day. i am so sleepy now. today, in lecture, i was so sleepy that i can hardly keep my eyes open! how good if my eyes is like a fish. can sleep without closing my eyes... haha...wat rubbish am i talking..LOL...but then during els lecture, it was okay because we sitted at the top seats of the lecture and it was quite fun when we talked some joking stuffs during the break. i like joking sessions with you all...haha...

thinking back of what i have learned this module, i really don't know how to answer. the things that i have learnt just seems to not get into my head. i don't know why the els lecturer like to ask me 'do u have any questions?' during tutorial. but i just told him no but it's not because i knew everything that he teach but it's because i don't understand what he is teaching so i got nothing to ask him. i really hope i can pass all the modules!!

tomorrow there will be no practice because the practice days had change don't know to which day le. there will be no more practice on saturday already. so sad!! i am so scare that weekdays i cannot tahan cos by the time i reach home, it will be so late already.

next friday will be the trial trip for the night cycling. the distance that we are cycling seems to be so long. i am so scared that i will faint halfway lah. choy choy!! LOL... my cycling skills is not good. i can't cycle fast or stable lor... but it seems to be fun! first time trying to cycle for 12 hours from 7pm to 7am. wooo.... fun fun..haha...

i am feeling quite guilty over something. hope u are not angry with me. i seems to be so irresponsible... shitieeee...

"STRUGGLING IN A POOL OF DIFFICULTIES SUXS!!"

2006-11-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

i am still so tired after sleeping early yesterday. the feeling of the tiredness is so much more than the normal days when i sleep even later. so weird!! anyway, today first lesson was law lecture for 2 hours. hope i did catch what mrs lee was trying to teach. haha... after that, we were let off early half and hour so we went to eat lunch and the guys said that they wanted to play basketball so we acc them to the basketball court at the sports stadium. watch them play but we was also sitting down there perspiring cos the sun was so hot! then it was crm and it lasted for only 20 mins or so cos we have to go for the monopoly training which is from 2-5. i find it a waste of time sitting there lor though it was fun lah. but i really feel like sleeping. for the first game, i was the richest person. haha...then second game, i became the banker and i find being a banker is quite slack lah...lol... but i did have my fun today. okok...off to finish off my econs tutorial which is due tml!

"WISHFUL THINKINGS..."

2006-11-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

my life is simple and free!!

class start at 11 today. haha...not bad cos i get to sleep more! but met eileen earlier half an hour cos i have to print out the slips for the permit at the library. then it was els lecture and per normal, it was boring and it was raining heavily lor. make me want to sleep more. haha...then after that was our 1 hour break but due to the rain, we have to walk the long cut to canteen 3 though we have to walk in the rain at one small part but we were not drench. then it was iwd and this time, the teacher ordered us not to use our lappy while he is teaching. so the whole lesson we was sitting down there watching him talk lor.haha...what to do?? LOL... finally, the last lesson of the day was law tutorial. i don't know why mrs lee seems to be very fierce on monday. make us so scare of her!! so scary to answer the questions she ask us lor. then after tutorial, went for the make-up lesson for econs. mr ong is so good to give us his time to teach us the lesson that we have missed on wed. so grateful to him though i am still quite blur about that topic. haha...

hope this week is gonna be a week that is free from all assignments. haha...so tired lor... i think i better sleep early today since there is no homework. LOL...if not i am gonna regret next time. kk...byeeee guys!!

"I AM GONNA BE HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT!!"

2006-11-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

hahaha...today is so fun!~
went for violin practice in the morning and we was late because of me. haha... was suppose to meet huiyun 8am at the bus stop but i overslept until 8. wahahaha...was late for half an hour and so reach school at 10. practice ended at 12.30 and it was fun cos we played canon in d again. OMG! the tempo for that song is real fast during the chorus part lor. so difficult to master it! after prac, went to meet the moviefreaks cos it is huihui's birthday today. planned to eat sakae sushi then today no buffet so after that changed to seoul garden which is my favourite but it will cost $20+ so we change again to siam kitchen. in the end, it also cost up to $20. LOL!! the food there is nice and filling but the dishes are so spicy. haha...then after eating, went shopping and i bought a bag. took so long for me to decide what i want. haha... i need more shirts and pants but i got no money! i don't why i spend my money so fast when i did not bought many stuffs. haha...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIHUI!!

oh ya oh ya...saw leo from star idol today. haha...at first, it was huihui who noticed it first. then she was telling suzanne that that guy standing there looks familiar. then i turned around and was still wondering who he was. i thought was their friend from poly lor but when he looked up, then i realised that it was him. haha...he looked quite different but more handsome lor. haha...wahhh...first time see star outside leh... LOL!!

i am happy and must be happy. LOL...just now we was chatting in the train and they was talking about blogs. then they was saying that almost every entries i am posting are not happy. OMG!! really?? haha... okok...i will try to be more happy and don't let stuffs that is causing me to be unhappy to enter my life.

we took neoprints just now!! haha... here it is:

2006-11-10T21:34:00.000+08:00

what a day! yesterday night was chionging my law tutorial that i didn't have enough time to blog. haha...there is just so much to do! anyway, yesterday went for IS which starts at 3pm. but i woke up at 8.30am to finish up my notes for the writing test and my law tutorial. i so guai rite...LOL....tat's because i am forced to. haha...yesterday was the best IS that i ever have this sem because went from 3 to 4+ cos we was let to go home after we had finish. so good lor! haha...today, school was not good at all. there is so many hours of lectures. the first two tutorials really spoil my day because i can't cope well with what the lecturer have teach. something did happen but i am not going to say it anymore.

i am so frustrated with doing the permit thing for night cycling just now. there are so many details that i don't know but still have to fill in. but thanks to weiliang for lending me his singpass lor, if not i am not able to do the permit thingy already. i think chinwei is going to get pissed off by me cos i keep on calling him to ask questions. LOL... but it's so mafan lor. i thought submitting the form then almost finish already but then when i called the person, she say that have to wait for their call for further instructions. haiz... hope this thing can be settled fast. i really feel quite bad when eileen stays back with me cos her mum don't allow her to come home late one. hope she won't get scolding!

i am so disappointed with someone! it's okay for him to be saying things in a straight forward way already but now he is criticising someone's effort. he don't know how much effort one have made to do all those stuffs. it's just so unfair!! they don't get to do those stuffs so they don't know how hard it is. how would he feel if he was put in the same shoes??(i am not referring to you!! haha...)

sometimes, i really cannot stand my brother lah. he is so annoying! everytime keep peeping into my lappy stuffs. thought there is secret information for him meh? like that is enough already but just now he really pissed me off by closing the window that i am blogging. please lor...i took so long to blog halfway and then i was away for a while and he took my lappy to see his own stuffs and even went to close my window when i did not save what i have just blogged. make me have to blog again. waste my time lah!!

OMG!! this weekend, there is so many stuffs for me to complete. i have to find 10 newspaper articles and do law tutorial 3. everything involves law. haiz!! i am so scare i can't finish cos i am going out the whole day tml. so i am left only with sunday to complete. die lah... hope i can do finish all by monday!!

"SOONER OR LATER, THE TRUTH WILL BE REVEALED!!"

2006-11-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

i have finished taking my 'O' level english. the overall paper was okay except that i used the wrong format for my report writing. hope that i can pass!! this morning, was suppose to meet with suzanne at 6.15am to eat breakfast at macdonald but but i was late cos i don't know why i overslept till 6am. then i messaged her but she was already at the bus stop. so i quickly rushed down but was still 10minutes late. after eating breakfast, went to take train to the school and we were so early but it's good cos i get to calm down myself first. oh ya...i want to thanks those who have wished me. thanks all of ya!! after exams, went to eat lunch with suzanne and went home. i really like the free time that i had at home cos there was no restriction and i get to do the things that i want to do. but there is still law tutorial waiting for me to complete. i am soo lazy to do! tomorrow will be IS again and i am not looking forward to it. haiz!!

i am so happy today!! haha...that's just some words that i have typed. so long never write that i am happy in my blog already. haha... later people will think that my everyday life is so bad.

anyway, i am so looking forward to this sat cos can go out with the moviefreaks!! yeah!!

"WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!!"

2006-11-07T18:02:00.000+08:00

ya....i am back home from school. it's so tiring and my mood was real bad in school today. i don't know why but suddenly i just feel quite sad. had our CRM presentation and overall was okay. during the video part, eileen, jason and me ran out of the room cos we were feeling so paiseh to watch the video. haha... tomorrow will be taking the english 'O' level paper 1 and 2. i am quite scare now cos i haven been practicing english for quite a long time already. hope that i am able to answer all the questions confidentally. i just hope i can get a C6 and i will be happy. good luck to me and also suzanne who will also be taking the paper tomorrow with me!! not forgetting gen... haha...good luck to her physics paper too!!

haha...i think i better go off to study my english!! shall post again tomorrow :)

"HUMAN BEINGS ARE NEVER HAPPY EVERYDAY BUT JUST A FEW MOMENTS OF HAPPY MOMENTS WILL ALSO NOT BE ENOUGH!!"

2006-11-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

what's the meaning of this??

omg!! i am so stressed up this week that i can't find enough space to breathe in and out. there are so many assignments for me to complete and even more stuffs are piling up for me to finish. why is it that last time when i am so free, nothing is there for me to complete. but now when suddenly there is so many assignments to do, there are other things which are more than assignments waiting for me. i feel like dying lah!!

List of things to be done this week:
-crm presentation which is tomorrow
-'O' level english exams on wed
-law tutorials to be rewritten as the
previous one was too messy
-calling the traffic police to apply
permit for the night cycling trip
-submitting the outline for comm toolkit
before thursday

haiz...so many stuffs to do. i don't want to live anymore!! so stress lah. i don't see myself so stress during the last semester. life seems to be more fun in the past than it is now. i don't quite understand what the lecturer is teaching now already. hope i can just cope with it and let this semester pass.

i want to go shopping...so long never go already!! hopefully, this saturday can be a shopping day because will be meeting up with the moviefreaks to celebrate huihui's birthday. so after that, maybe can go shop around. i want to buy a lot of stuffs. haha...luckily mum is gonna give me some money during this weekend. hahaha...

things are not always there for you!! so please treasure it as you won't know when you are going to regret it when the thing is no longer there already! cherish everything that you have in life!!

"SOMETHING UNEXPECTED WILL JUST SUDDENLY HAPPEN!!"

2006-11-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

oohhhlala...

i like saturday because it's not a school day. haha!! went for violin practice in the morning. learned two new songs which are silent night and canon in d. i like canon in d and i must learn it well!! haha... i like going to npstrings more than school. so after the practice, went with huiyun to meet suzanne and shijuan at suntec to go singing. haha... so long never have outing with them already. but we were late so we missed out 1 hour and so we sang from 3-7. everytime go singing, time always pass so fast! haiz...or should i say that time always pass faster when i am enjoying myself.

humans can be different at times! sometimes, we can be feeling in one way and then a few moments later, we will be feeling in another way. it's so confusing!! i hate all this feelings lah.

how good would it be if i am free from all the miseries in my life. i just hope that everything in my life can be perfect and there is no more worries. what a thing to say when i know that it is not so possible. haha...

"THE POSITIVE THINKING MINDSET IS GRADUALLY FADING AWAY!!"

2006-11-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

wat's the matter with me??

school today was tiring cos there is so many lectures in one day. i prefer last semester when we have so many breaks and then the modules are so much easier than now. haiz... during break, we went out to KAP mac to celebrate xinyu's birthday. bought her a chocolate cake at bengawan solo but we was so full to eat because the macdonald's meal is just so filling. anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,XINYU..!!

i hate all of u!! i just hope that i can disappear from this world and get away from all these tortures. i hate being here!!

why do some people always don't think first before they speak?? to them, it might be a way to say funny stuffs but don't they know that they are getting a bit too sarcastic?? haiz...

"THE UNPREDICTABLES OF LIFE!!"

2006-11-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

the black thursday!!

i really don't like thursday lah.. haiz!! anyway, today went out early to meet eileen to eat subway at the telepark there. the chocolate cookies is really nice. haha...then went school together for IS. before taking the bus 74, there was these two persons whom i don't know called me. they took turns talking to me and keep asking me where am i and then want me to tell them about don't know what topic. i was so blur lah and i told them they called the wrong person but they still don't wanna hang out and insist that they know me. they keep telling me "don't 'gei gao' lah, u surely know who i am de". so i talk and talk to them for so long clarifying that i really don't know them but they still don't want to give up and so eileen asked me to hang up the call. so funny lah them! after that, they smsed me and tell me that they really called the wrong person. i think they are feeling really paiseh lor. haha... the funny thing was how did they know my hp no. and also my name! so after reaching school, went for iac class and i was a bit late. haha... i feel so sian going to IS class. i really hate it lah!!

i am feeling so stress from all the tutorials. there is so many tutorials for me to do and i have found out that i don't really understand the modules that i am taking. i have no interest in this sem's module lah! hope that i don't break down before the exam which i am really scare i would. haiz!!

"THE UNHAPPY GIRL SEEKING FOR HER HAPPINESS!!"

2006-11-01T15:40:00.000+08:00

haha...just now in school with eileen, jason and weiliang doing crm project! so fun cos we doing the videos and the first video features jason and me. we took so many shots but the process is real funny lah..haha... after taking the video, we was slacking already cos all of us don't have the mood already. LOL!! anyway, today school day was short cos there is only two hours of econs lecture and two more hours of econs tutorial. so we only have four lessons of class. wednesday is the best day in sch.woohoooo....haha! tomorrow will be IS again. hope everything will be fine! i don't know why everytime when i think of IS i will have some phobia in it. haiz!

i am feeling so tired these few days. i seriously need more sleep! how good would it be if there are holidays now. then everyday, i can get enough sleep already. haha...LOL! this is just the thirs week of school and i am thinking of holidays already. OMG!!

"THE NEVER-ENDING TIRING DAYS!!"

2006-10-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

the meeny teeny mini...

i don't know what is happening to me today. suddenly feel so stress up after school ends. feeling so tired but there is so many things for me to complete. there is the econs tutorial which is due on wed, law which i have to find a total of 10 mewspaper articles and crm which i have to find more info on. anyway, today's lesson was fine except that i wasn't really concentrating. the first lesson was els lecture and luckily it is just 1 hour. after that was internet web design and i didn't listen to the teaching cos i was sitting in class transferring songs into my lappy. haha... it is so strange that the teacher never reprimand us for not concentrating especially when the earpiece is in my ears and so many of us was sitting there moving the mouse. it's so obvious that we am not listening to what he is saying lor. then it was law tutorial and mrs lee went through the the tutorial questions with us. it was so funny when she is saying stuffs about the princess hours dramas. haha... everything ended at 4pm and we waited for 1 hour before went to BE meeting. it lasted for 1 hour plus and it's home sweet home. haha...but before going home, went to the clubhouse to meet xiuli and clarice and brandon was also there. so went home with them!

sometimes, i just feel so left out. maybe it's because i am not as good as everyone else. or am i just being an 'extra' in a group. i don't know and i don't wanna know. this is making me feel so complex! why am i always feeling this way? someone, please please help me get out of all this mess that i am in now... maybe it's just better if i never choose what i have choosen! i am so scarce that i will be hating the things that i have always been looking forward to...

trying so hard to reach out but when I'd try to speak out, felt like no one could hear me. wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here, so I pray I could breakaway...

"SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THE HAPPENINGS!"

2006-10-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

the truths and the lies...

a tiring day. today, went to the water campaign in the morning which was organised by the Green volunteers from BE. it was fun cos we get to go to about 10 HDB flat units to do surveys and so we get to see the designs of the house. the units that my group visit, some HDB flats have really nice designs lor. haha... It was the first time that i ever go around HDB flats like that. i like my group cos i know all of them. haha... they are huiyun, sabrina and chinwei! i think i will be totally sian off if my group involve those that i don't know. oh ya, i get to shake the health minister's hand today. haha... it's because he is the guest-of-honour for today so everyone of us have to go up on stage to receive our certificate. but actually the envelope that they give, inside was just plain paper that we have to return back after coming down on stage. haha...so interesting! the water campaign ended at 1+pm and after that, eileen and me went over to causeway point to meet tinghui and hamizah cos hamizah have invited us to her house to celebrate hari raya. after that, weiliang also came to join us. went up to her house and all of her family members was there. they are really nice!! they prepared mee rebus, lontong and hotdogs for us. however, i have to leave early to meet my family at marine parade to eat dinner. so left the place after about half an hour and i am feeling so paiseh for leaving so early. haha...but anyway, hamizah thanks for inviting us. rushed over to marine parade and the weather is so strange. when i left, woodlands was raining cats and dogs but when i reached to the central side, the floor there is dry. so weird lor! i am the first family member to reach and i am so relieve. haha...cos i won't get blame already cos most of the time when i meet for family outing, i am always the lastest one. hahaha... i have very bad time management ! went over to the steamboat shop and i am very full now! but it is worth it cos one adult cost $10 and it is some form of buffet lah. take and take and take. haha...

there are so many tutorials for me to do this weekend. law and econs and these two subjects are going to kill me! so difficult lah...thinking of this really spoil my weekends! haiz... hope i can manage to get through this tutorial.

don't care if people are treating you invisible. if they are not treating you as good as the others then just let them be. you can't possibly change what they are thinking. tell yourself that you don't give it a damn and let everything goes accordingly. life is just so unfair!! many thoughts are running through my head now..

"A WORD OF CONSOLE IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANYTHING..."

2006-10-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

the communication breakdown...

i am so tired today. had 6 hours of lecture and 1 hour of tutorial. i think it's a bit too much already because my brain simply can't absorb so many things inside. so during the end of the day when we were having our ELS lecture, so many people are talking and not a lot of us are concentrating. haha... who ask our ELS lecture to be scheduled at the end of the day. muahahaha! so after school, went to take bus to clementi mrt station with tinghui, jason and weiliang. didn't go home with eileen because she have BE meeting today. went to take train back alone and the journey back is real horrible because train today is extremely squeezy. was trying to grasp for breath inside lah but still got so many people coming in and i was pushed around here and there like hell...OMG! please,please next time don't let me experience this again!!

"IT IS NOT SURPRISING THAT EVERYONE ARE TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED..."

swensen's chocolate fondue

me, tinghui and hamizah(eileen is helping us to take this pic..haha...)

2006-10-26T21:57:00.000+08:00

the other side...

went back school for comm toolkit just now. class was suppose to start at 3 but meeted early for lunch and also discussion for the project. was suppose to meet up with christina and xinzhi first for lunch before meeting dewei. therefore, meeted with eileen first to go to school together. but after reaching school, i received message from both of them that they can't join for lunch cos they have something on. OMG! at that point of time i was like how can you all panseh me!! hahaha...luckily, huiyun and xiuli was still in school so they came over to accompany me. thanks alot girls...really grateful to you all!! will treat ya all next thur to drinks...hahaha... class today was quite boring and we brought our lappy for nothing cos last minute, teacher called us to do the quiz at home...haiz!! so after comm class, went for the personal skincare and hygiene talk which me and eileen have sign up for. i think most of the people went because there was cca points. haha... it was quite interesting and lasted for only 1 hour. tomorrow will be such a long day with so many lectures going on. hope i can survive in there without falling asleep. hahaha...

"BEING HURTFUL IS JUST SO PAINFUL..."

2006-10-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

the unforgettable moments...

suddenly have the urge to change blogskin cos find that the previous blogskin is quite plain. hahaha...so today, went vivo city again. muahahaha!! went with tinghui, eileen, hamizah, jason, ivan and weiliang. there is nothing much to shop cos the place is just fulled with shops and we don't know which shop to enter into. therefore, we just walked around and then we went into swensens for ice-cream. yummie,yummie!! hahaha... shared chocolate fondue with tinghui and it's delicious especially when u dip the brownies inside the chocolate, it's simply so shiok lah...LOL!! the cost is quite okay cos it cost $16.80 for a two person share. so after that, went back home with eileen and i am feeling so sleepy now!!

how i wish all the worries will just vanish in the air!! nothing more to worry about and don't need to care about what others are thinking. sometimes, it's just so hard to know how they feel. more negative thinkings are coming up in my head!!

"HUMAN'S THINKINGS ARE SO DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND!!"

2006-10-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

life is not beautiful at all....

today was never ever good. went out with family to chinatown to walk, walk. but then mum had to go to some book fair which ends today so we have to leave early and come home early. so sian lah! whole day was so boring, nothing special to do! just feel so moody the whole day! anyway, yesterday was fun. have class as per normal and after that was BE meeting. met up with carol first and we went to canteen 1 and she ate mee siam. then after that, huiyun came join us and she told me that she met charmain, xiuli and brandon and they plan to go orchard. so, immediately after the meeting, we went over to orchard to meet them. we went to have our dinner first and then they came over to find us. soon after, clarice also came to join us. actually wanted to go watch movie but then the movie time is either too late or some of us have already watched it. so we decided to go the top storey of cinne where they rent out rooms and dvds to let people enjoy. haha...first time knew that there is actually such places in singapore. but the rooms there are small and the six of us have to squeeze inside watching the movie. we chose to watch helen, the baby fox as they say that it was soo touching. comments to the movie was, it is really touching and the girls inside all cried except me. haha... cos during the sad part, my tears was about to drop when i turned around and saw everyone crying already and suddenly i just feel so funny. so i took tissue to let them dry tears. haha... but the outing yesterday was fun!! enjoyed it alot. today's public holiday end so fast and tomorrow will be school day again. hope everything turns up fine tomorrow!!

again, thursday is coming. but i just don't feel quite good about thursday!! i also don't know why. hope this week just pass faster as there is just so many things that i am not looking forward to coming up.

"EVERYTHING IS JUST NOT TRUE BUT I CHOSE TO BELIEVE IT..."

2006-10-22T02:11:00.000+08:00

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today was soo fun...haha! went k-ster to sing. it was so shiok and i found out that people in npstrings can really sing. muahahaha... but it was abit ex cos it cost about $18 for 4 hours. haha...maybe it's because of the public holiday that they are charging so ex. after singing, went eating porridge at chinatown. yummy,yummy!! the century egg porridge was delicioussss!! then went vivo city with huiyun, charmaine and jason. so many people was there and the shopping center is really big but then actually i expect it to be much bigger one. haha...too high expectations already. but the view outside was nice and the sea breeze was just making me don't want to go any place else lah. haha... but we went over to mac to sit down and have a chat. it was quite fun cos jason was telling us so much about his life experience and the things he said is so exaggerating but it did actually happen in real life. time really flies and by the time we left mac, it was 12am already. the suay thing is, when we reach the train station, the last train has just left. so no choice but to take cab home.

something suay happen to me today. haha... i tripped over the table after having finish my lunch. the most suay thing is my slippers fall apart when i tripped. so i have to buy a slippers last minute lah. have to drag my old slippers from level 6 down to level 1 to get another slippers..it was so paiseh but luckily no one notice. hahaha...

suddenly have the urge to go overseas. LOL!! just now there was so many people in harbourfront ferry terminal carrying big big luggage. so envious of them lah! can go overseas one. i also want!!

"IS TIME REALLY THE REASON BEHIND EVERYTHING?"

2006-10-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

break the ice!!

today, went school for my IS modules which i have been worrying for a long time. my class was okay but i am quite afraid of the modules cos it requires a lot of presentation. why must NP have IS...haha... hope everything will be fine for the whole of this semester. we had our groups and my team members are christina, dewei and xinzhi. they are nice and also jokers. LOL!! hope we can break the ice well. haha... school is still so boring. nothing much to blog about. shall post photos now...muahahah...

"WISHING FOR MY LITTLE DREAM TO COME TRUE!!"

2006-10-17T21:20:00.000+08:00

i am loving it~~

2nd day of school was okay. had our law lecture and client relationship management lesson. the lecture was quite funny cos while the lecturer was introducing stuffs about the module and she is also crapped some jokes. it was not so boring compared to other modules. hope that it will be so interesting for all the lectures! then after law, we had two hours break and we went to bukit timah market to eat lunch. i ordered carrot cake but it was quite horrible for me. it don't taste nice to me or maybe i am just too fussy already..hahaha... after that was crm and again, it was introduction to this module and we had a sample on how a problem-based question should be solved. the question given was quite funny and the story that our grp had was quite gross. LOL!! so overall, today was okay for me and hope that the following days would be better ba...

i am so looking forward to tomorrow cos lesson will end at 11...haha...actually it is suppose to end at 12 but there is no tutorial we only have to attend lecture till 10. but cos next week is a public holiday, so we have a make-up lesson for crm for 1 more hour. hope the lecturer don't hold us back for too long...

"NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE THOUGH I HOPE THAT IT WILL"

2006-10-16T20:31:00.000+08:00

positive thinking...

"i miss npstrings"

family concert is over. to me, it was a success becos all of us did better than what we have did during rehearsals. though not people attended the concert, but we did our best to perform! during the end of the concert, the results for our evaluation was announced. was surprised when i get a merit cos my name was announced quite at the back so i was telling huiyun i think i failed cos my name not announce yet. hahaha...but luckily scored not quite bad. had so much fun memories during this period from preparing the concert till the day we had the concert. i will seriously miss all of them cos we spend most of our holidays together and i must say that it was so fun... hope we will get to meet up soon. took so many photos...hahaha...will upload it soon when i get the pics from huiyun!!

school has started and everything is back to per normal. everyday going back to school for lectures and tutorials. it's so boring and i don't really like the modules that i am having this sem. heard that there will be so many presentations for us and i seriously hate presenting. today, we had our first electrical system lecture, internet web design lesson and law tutorial. the lecture was so okay it's just that there was many physics for us to learn. then the iwd lesson was boring cos sometimes i can't understand what the lecturer is speaking. we are so blur when the lecturer is speaking. haha...then the law was funny cos the lecturer ask us to intro ourselves by telling her one thing that is good about us. all our answers are so funny. hope that it will be fun when having her lessons.

maybe i am just not used to it. i am starting to hate thur now. how come i just can't find any one who is in the same IS class as me. i don't wanna be alone in a class full of strangers. i will feel so weird inside!! hope the people in this class are nice if not my thur will not be beautiful at all every week during this sem which is when i have to endure for about 2 months. pray hard everything goes well for me!! :)

"YOU WILL ONLY LEARN TO TREASURE IT WHEN EVERYTHING IS GONE!!"

2006-10-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

life is just so realistic...

so long never blog already...haha! been going back to school since the day i came back from camp cos have to practice for the concert. but enjoy it cos during these few days, went ice-skating and watch the movie "you, me and dupree". went ice-skating on tue and so many pple went too. it was kind of terrible for me cos i keep on falling down and i seriously need someone to be by my side holding me so i won't fall down. haha...but it was fun when u have master the techniques of skating though till now i still haven... LOL!! then wed, went watch the movie with huiyun, valerie, frans, yongkang, clarice and charmaine. the movie was okay but i feel like sleeping during some parts of the movie. before the movie, we went to shop around and we went into a music instrument shop at esplanade. there was so many violin there and the shop people is so good giving all of us one cleaning cloth which costs $7... he's so good lah...haha... so after the movie, went back school for evaluation. it was so horrible cos we have to go in to be evaluate one by one. did not do well cos the remarks getting back from my playing was negative. just hope i can pass it... i don't want to remain being a freshies. hahaha... tomorrow will be the family concert! so nervous now...i am so scare i will get stage-fright or i will play wrong. hope everything goes well for all of us!! let this few months of practice be a success for us!

am i treating pple in the correct way?? maybe i am doing things in the wrong way but i really don't know how to change. life seriously sucks at this point of time especially when the new term starts. i am not looking forward for it anymore! let everything end here fast please!! sorry here to someone whom i have been feeling guilty to...

"THEY ARE NOT CHILDISH ANYMORE BUT THEY ARE NEITHER NAIVE..."

2006-10-09T12:23:00.000+08:00

blurish me!!

finally back from the 4 days 3 nights nps camp...it was tiring but fun especially when we were playing games. i slept for about 20 hours yesterday after getting bak from the camp. now wake up feeling so sick and blur... the first day nothing much except playing some ice-breakers games and practicing violin. can't slept so played 'taidi' with the rest. have to thanks valerie for teaching us.

then second day, we went dirty playing games. got wet and was splashed flour and butter. but it was fun cos nv kanna dirty playing games before. hahaha... second day, really slept through the nights cos all of us was feeling so tired.

then third day, we walked around the school at night cos played murderer games. it was not very scary cos most of the lights was on but was so tiring with all the running. imagine being in a group with all guys except two girls. of course, the guys will be all chionging and so the girls will also have to follow. after playing the games, we played sparkles and it's the first time i saw the rocket. it was so nice when there was so many pple making it and we was like rocket here rocket there then going everywhere to watch it. it was in the morning after the games end. so we went bathing and went to the music room not sleeping at all. we played games and then one of the alumni guy shared ghost stories with us. it was quite freaky but didn't think much about it cos i was there dozing off already. haha...

after that, went up to the dorm to pack our stuffs and me and huiyun fell asleep for one hour. it was so funny when they tried waking us up cos when zhenqi and karsweed was trying to wake us up, we was sleeping like logs and we can't hear them. they called us for so long and even intend to put toothpaste on our face to wake us up. i think all of us was really tired after the camp. then it was home sweet home...

''TIME ALWAYS PASS FASTER WHEN YOU ARE ENJOYING IT...IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!!"

2006-10-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

i am seriously so disappointed!!

went back to school just now...actually was to reach early to help up with the deco, but ended up chatting all the way cos zhenqi asked her friend down to help. so we just sat there talking and talking. haha...so nice of her friend lah and they knew each other when they were in primary school. OMG! come to think of it, i think i have lost contact with most of my primary school friends already...LOL!! so after that was practice and we met another instructor. she was nice!!

just now was so pissed off but now feeling okay already... i must just admit the fact and don't brood over it anymore. since things are going this way, then just let it be as nothing can be forced to change...but i must say that i am so disappointed. haiz...i just can't believe that this is happening. why, why, why? most of the time, i am the one encountering this types of problems... haiz...hope everything will goes off fine!!

haiz..don't know izzit because just now the mop accidentally touched my leg that i am getting so suay...haha... i think i am too superstitious but at times it is normal to get superstitious...LOL... hope that i am just thinking too much... hahaha...

"IT'S BETTER NOT TO EXPECT SO MUCH AT TIMES AS THE DISAPPOINTMENT GETTING BACK WOULD BE MUCH MORE THAN WHAT YOU HAVE EXPECTED!!"
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cheer up!!

headed kbox with caiting, tinghui, eileen and suetni.haha... fun fun! though there was only the few of us, but we did enjoy ourselves...after singing, met up with hamizah to have our dinner. ate delifrance and was so full... after eating finish, while paying for our bill, ivan came to meet us to go shopping. but eileen and me didn't join in cos i am having camp tml so have to reach home early to pack my bag. haha...but till now my bag is not packed yet. i am just so lazy to pack cos it's like so messy lah...can predict that i will be leaving out something not bringing there. haha...but hope this four days can pass fast fast...i am seriously not looking forward to it at all...haiz!!

lifes are full of ups and downs and i believe that we will be experiencing all these once in a lifetime... so just get all over it and enjoy lifes at all times... wat happen yesterday was just some downs. hope everything will be fine soon! i am not going to waste my energy getting upset over it!!

"GRATEFUL HAVING YOU ALL IN MY LIFE..."

2006-10-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

complicated feelings~~

went for haircut with gen and huiyun just now. actually looks quite the same as before except that the person helped me to blow straight. haha... spent $14 and dad was complaining that he don't see much different in me cutting my hair cos there was not much different in my hair length. haiz...that wasn't the first time that he is saying this. hahaha.... i seriously think that i am going to be dead broke this week. dad gave me $40 for this week allowance and now i think i am left with 10 dollars plus. OMG!! i also don't know where i have spent my money into. can't imagine how am i going to survive with so few money. pray hard that i can get more money from dad though i know that he would be nagging once again..haha...

wei xiao pasta episode 12 is finally out..watched finish already and i think that it is real nice!! can't wait for the episode 13... i like zhang dong liang alots!! hahaha...

"NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, LIFE STILL GOES ON...SO WHY NOT ALWAYS LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE..."

2006-10-01T22:31:00.000+08:00

the ultimate you!!

yesterday had practices from 10am-4pm. is so tiring lor... haha...cos i slept at 2am at the previous night and still have to wake up at 7.30am the next day so went to school feeling so sleepy. it's one of the most scary practice that i have cos the instructor was there. his face is like so fierce and when he asked us to go out to tune our violins one by one, our hearts is like beating so fast lah..so worry! then jiaxue is so funny to say that be careful when going out, don't fall down leh...haha...actually i was also worrying about this when it was going to be my turn...LOL! so after tuning, he told us to play the finger exercise and the atmosphere there was really scary and i did fake through during some of the parts cos i really cannot follow up when he asked us to play fast. haiz! tuesday going back again and the other instructor will be there. arghhh...the practice days is like adding up cos the time of staying in school is more than the time i am staying at home.

i like the song ''believe'' from the jap drama overtime... so nice lah! can listen until cry. haha... so touching when i first heard it...is really really niceeee...guess this will be the first song that i will be playing recently when i on my lappy...hahaha...

"I BELIEVE SOMEDAY I WILL LOVE SOMEONE WHO'S BY MY SIDE, OR SOMEDAY MY SPECIAL ONE WILL COME ALONE, I'LL PRAY EVERYDAY!!"

2006-09-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

it's so hard to be a human!

yeah! my pimple has finally become smaller. all thanks to zhenqi's pimple cream. she is so niceee to lend me her pimple cream yesterday. haha... thanks alot, girl. hehe...today, was supposed to stay at home whole day but last minute, went out to meet huiyun and gen for a bubble tea drink. hmm...tried out the mint chocolate flavour but i can't really taste out the mint, there was only the chocolate taste. so after drinking, chatted about how we have been recently and also the chalet thingy that have been pestponed and then went over to mac cos there was really no where to walk around. sat there and huiyun used gen's lappy to help her with the updates. so, i sat there watching the show 'liao zai' since they was broadcasting it in the tv. sat there for about 45 mins and we went home. brought mooncake home today cos huiyun passed each of us a pack of snow skin mooncake that she and her mom have made.haha...tasted really nice! never tried eating home-made mooncake before...wahahaha...thanks thanks...

i am just so sick and tired of guessing what people are feeling. it is just so hard to understand them. why am i always the one trying to guess wat people are feeling? i really, really hate this kind of feeling that i am having now.

"AS LONG AS YOU BELIEVE, YOU WILL SEE THE GREEN LIGHT HAPPINESS!!"

2006-09-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

i like being in my dreamland...

haha...went back school for rehearsal until 10+... omg! i am feeling so tired now. played on stage 3 times and the feeling that i am having now is so nervous and at times i can feel that my hand is shaking. haiz...have to control myself more if not i am going to embarass myself during the actual day.haha...can't imagine what will i be feeling when there are audiences on the actual day. tomorrow's plan(oops...or should i say later on's plan since it's past 12! haha) will be to meet huiyun and zhenqi to find the paint for the family concert decorations. hmm..going to plaza singapura and i can get to eat BK's breakfast! haha....YEAH! long time never eat le. can predict that it will be a long tiring day cos after getting the paint, have to head back to school for practice and after that have to start the deco thingy. don't know can tahan anot..haha...OMG! the time now is 1.16am.it took me abt 30 mins to blog such a short post.haha... better go sleep now. shall blog again later when i am back from school..hahaha...

"LIFE IS A JOURNEY AND IT CAN TAKE US TO ANYWHERE WE CHOOSE TO GO..."

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trust the voice within...

haha...my 2nd entry of the day. went school for practice but before that, went PS to look for some glow in the dark spray for the deco. i think that we are seriously so unlucky cos we actually thought that we could get it from the spotlight but when we went there, the section that sells spray was closed cos they was doing some floor renovation and we couldn't cross over to get it. so we asked the sales assistant and she told us that it was out of stock and we was like 'OMG!' cos we was sort of carrying high hopes that we could get it there... so after that, we went down to carrefour to find but also don't have but the person told us that centerpoint have one D.I.Y shop that might have sell spray. we walked there for about 10mins and also took the chance to shop around.LOL... after reaching there, we went into the shop but then couldn't find the right spray. so we walked down again to taka's art friend to find the spray and we bought 4 sprays back. omg...all the walking is making my leg aching. hope that the deco will be a success! haha... back to the practice, was quite messy cos last minute we was taught more different way to play the finger exercise. haiz...so difficult to cope with it and timothy said that the teacher that will be coming on sat is very particular about the finger exercise. arghhhh...i really have difficulty playing it cos i will always be losing counts of the number of notes. just pray hard that everything will goes well on sat...

haha...just recall that something funny happen to me just now. went to photocopy scores with huiyun at tampines interchange. so after photocopying, i heard the person said $13.30 and i was like thinking eh, how come so expensive. but then i never think much and blur blur take out $13.30 to pay the cashier. then the cashier said "why u take so much money out? only $1.30 ma..." then i was like OMG! i am so blur...haha...don't know why was in a blur mood just now...wahahaha...thinking of it was really so funny lah...photocopy a few piece of paper can cost $13.30. haha...the person told me u thought gold paper ar...LOL!

"HOW GOOD WOULD IT BE IF SOME PART OF OUR MEMORIES IS WASHED AWAY..."

2006-09-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

i am dying soon!!

back home from chalet. hmm...first day actually nothing much to do.went there then watched tv, played card game 'heart attack' for a while and then went over to bedok sheng siong supermarket to help buy the stuffs for tomorrow's bbq. the trip to sheng siong is so terrible. we took cab there and i was having car sick and then the uncle still go the long way making me feel so nauseous. actually decide to go giant one but then end up change place and the cab driver don't know where is the place and he even asked eileen to help him find the place in the map.LOL!! so funny lah. then tinghui,ivan and jason who was in the other cab, ended up in bedok interchange and tinghui and jason have to take cab again to find us but they was taken to another supermarket and they have to walk quite long to find us. feel quite guilty cos tinghui was having fever and she still have to walk a long distance there. should have take the cab with her. but also no use cos i also don't know which is the actual sheng siong that we are going..LOL!! so after shopping for the bbq stuffs, tinghui, carol, suetni and jason went back to chalet and i took cab with eileen home but in the end, we went to tampines mall to eat mac..haha...so full now!!

OMG! i am feeling totally sian off now..casilda told me that there will be practice also on sat which means that i have to go back school for 3 days. arghhh...i feel like dying now. one thing is i don't know why i am feeling so scare of the instructor when i have not seen him before...wahahaha... is it because i am thinking too much already?? or is it because i have no confidence in me playing well?? arghhhh....have to tell myself to relax more!! hahaha...

haiz...it's so weird when things are working in the opposite way for me. everything is just not working in the right way...why, why, why??

"THE WORDS THAT APPEAR IN MY MIND MOST OF THE TIME IS GUILTY AND REGRET..."

2006-09-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

i am so bored now...
haha...stay at home again! nothing much to do except watching lotsa of tv. hahaha... but manage to arrange my photos in the photo album that i have bought yesterday and also practice violin for a little while... after that was tv,tv and tv. OMG! holidays are coming to an end but i still don't feel that i am having holiday now.. haiz..why must time pass so fast? or am i just not cherishing the time that i am having during the past few weeks of holiday?? but learning to cherish is just so difficult cos once you have learn to cherish it, it would have disappear...

why am i in my lala land most of the time? haha...always dreaming of a lot of things. but then the things that i have dreamt have never ever come true. things are always going in the opposite way for me. when the dreams that i want it to come true it won't come true. but then the dreams that i have never ever dream of, it will come true. it's so weird in life.hahaha...

"'CAUSE YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART, FROM THIS DAY ON NOW AND FOREVER!!"

2006-09-24T12:48:00.000+08:00

wahahaha...
today and yesterday was so boring!! whole day staying at home rotting. haha... watching tv is still the best way to kill boredom. yesterday don't know why was totally moodless. the whole day feeling so sad and lifeless but i have found a way to cure my moodiness which is to listen to many,many songs. haha.. i really like fish leong alot cos listening to her songs can really make me feel better. so thursday and friday, went back to school for practice. it was tiring but fun with the company of the others members.hahaha... next tue will be the class chalet! but eh, the mood of going for chalet is not here yet. am i looking forward for it anot? i also don't know yet.. haha...

If you were all alone in the universe with no one to talk to, no one with which to share the beauty of the stars, to laugh with, what would be your purpose in life? It is other life, it is love, which gives your life meaning. This is harmony. We must discover the joy of each other, the joy of challenge, the joy of growth.

"MAYBE WE ARE PEOPLE FROM TWO DIFFERENT WORLDS!!"

2006-09-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

arghhh...
my neck is aching so much. don't know is it because of my wrong sleeping position that when i woke up this morning, i have difficulty turning my neck to the left. it was so painful that i almost cried but now it's slightly ok. i can turn my head abit to the left but the pain is still there.haiz...why must it be today?haha...so ya, today finally went to the boardgame cafe at katong with huiyun, suzanne and shi juan and it's so fun. there was so many selection of games for us to choose and most of the games there i have not play before. but there was helpers teaching us to play the games and in total, we played about 5games? or more? haha...i also forgot about it. in total, we played for 5hrs spending $14.40 for the foods,drinks and the playing of games. i want to go again! wahhaha...

reflection

look at me
you may think you see
who i really am
but you'll never know me every day
it's as if i play a part now
i see
if i wear a mask
i can fool the world
but i cannot fool my heart
who is that girl i see
staring straight back at me?
when will my reflection show who i am inside?
i am now in a world
where i have to hide my heart
and what i believe in
but somehow i will show the world
what's inside my heart
and be loved for who i am
who is that girl i see staring straight back at me?
why is my reflection someone i don't know?
must i pretend that i'm someone else for all time?
when will my reflection show who i am inside?
there's a heart that must be free to fly
that burns with a need to know the reason why
why must we all conceal what we think how we feel?
must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide?
i won't pretend that i'm someone else for all time
when will my reflection show who i am inside?
when will my reflection show who i am inside?

like this song alot so just feel like posting the lyrics here...hahaha...

"SOME DREAMS ARE JUST SO HARD TO COME TRUE!"

2006-09-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

yippieeee...
haha...nothing much happen recently so didn't blog for these few days. friday got back my exam results! eh...not disappointed with it but then still have to work harder. yesterday, went out with huiyun and suzanne to play bowling..omg!the price is so expensive.1 game cost $3.80 and we really spent alot there cos we also played pool. hahaha... after that, we went home at abt 4+pm and then went to bedok hawker centre to eat with my family.haha...the food there was nice and i simply love the barbequed chicken wings.the atmopsphere there was somehow the same as lau pa sat except that yesterday was drizzling a little so no one was sitting outside. wahahaha...i am eating so much! this morning, went out to have breakfast cum lunch cos my brother's football practice ended at 11+ so we waited for him before going to eat.. after that,went liang court to shop around and time passed really fast and the whole afternoon is starting to end.

finally watched finish the uploaded videos of wei xiao pasta and i must say that zhang dong liang is so handsome.haha...so crazy over him now..LOL!! but too bad the full epi of the drama is not out yet. have to wait for the rest to be uploaded. so now i am gonna watch tokyo juliet. think should also be nice..

"WHY MUST WE ALL CONCEAL WHAT WE THINK AND HOW WE FEEL? MUST THERE BE A SECRET ME?"

2006-09-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

hahas...
have been going out too often during this few days. i want to spend more time at home but just can't help it..haha... yesterday, went back to school to help up with the family concert decorations.have not finish the decorations yet but we managed to complete most of it in abt 3hrs. haha...tat's all because we have huiyun who was our artist.LOL! she did most of the drawings and it was really nice... so today, went back to school for violin practice for 4 hrs but it ended abit early cos we find excuses that we have to go home early...hahaha...still can't play really well! guess have to practice more... OMG! tomorrow is the day cos the exam results will be out.i am so scare and they are saying that smses of our results will be sent to us early in the morning.HUH...arghhh...then i have to wake up early to check my results already...just checked the timetable for next sem and my IS is in the afternoon...OMG! i am really worried cos all the pple that i will be seeing in the class will be different. haiz...just thinking of this makes me feel like dying.hahaha...just hope that i will not be hating this module at all...

tomorrow will not be going out..plan to watch dramas in youtube.there is alot of dramas that i want to watch..haha....there is wei xiao pasta, tokyo juliet, swing girls(yet to watch finish some parts) and life made simple.haha...dun know how long it will get me to finish watching all.

"THERE IS ALOT OF CHOICES IN LIFE BUT IT IS JUST A MATTER OF WHAT WE HAVE CHOSE!"

2006-09-11T21:07:00.000+08:00

arghhh...
i am getting real bek chey now!! i can't sign in into msn despite trying for a lot of times. hope that it is not because my laptop is having some problem...haiz...everything seems to oppose me...nothing goes right for me. so today, went swimming in the morning with huiyun and badminton during the afternoon with huiyun, shijuan and eileen. hope that i did lose some weight...haha...have to lose the weights that i have gained during the past few days. but i am just wondering how are we going to lose weight especially when there is food temptation everywhere after exercising...hahaha...we just love foods!! tomorrow, we will be going through the same routine as today which is to swim and play badminton...haha...people might think that we are crazy but then it is also a good way for us to destress...

i just don't understand why are things in a mess when it is happening on me. i am like not able to handle small problems which can be solve easily. people tend to say that it is important to stay calm when problems happen and i always believe that it is true.but when problems really exist, i find it really hard to stay calm. at times, i really find that i am thinking in a complicated way and that's why i am always having worries. i always tend to think in a negative way and make myself become so stress up. i am so scared that i will end up getting depression one day.hahaha...

'DO I REALLY LOVE MYSELF?'
this is the question that i have been asking myself recently. the truth is at times i don't really love myself. i also don't know why but i just feel that i am a bad person doing all those bad things. this is just the feeling that i am having.. i am just some irresponsible person.

"AM I CARING FOR OTHERS OR JUST FOR MYSELF?"

2006-09-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!
back from malacca and i must say that it is real fun.haha... but the time spend there is really short. how i wish that i can be there for longer times. didn't manage to take any photos as i lost my camera during the previous trip to kuala lumpur..haiz...what a pity! haha... so went there for two days and i ate alot.. gained a few pounds already..hahaha...but guess dad has spend alot of money there cos we are always asking for money to buy things but no choice cos this is what a holiday should be like...LOL!!i just love going malaysia! LOL...

today, went out with the moviefreaks...haha...ate a lot! omg, we are always eating during every outing...but i enjoy it!hahaha...so in the morning, meet huiyun and shijuan first for swimming. after that, meet suzanne to eat lunch and we used a long time deciding where to go to eat.in the end, we ate delifrance and i just love the eggs..haha... so after eating, we went shopping around around tampines mall and century square and it is making me so tired cos no money means nothing to shop for. haha...then went bugis to meet gen and we were off to our dinner at lau pa sat and we was like eating so many foods.haha...we ordered satay, chicken wing and o-lua(some kind of oysters thingy) but then nobody dares to eat oyster, so in the end, i was the one eating most of the oysters with the help of suzanne...haha...just pray hard that i won't have stomachache tml..hahaha...

"HOW GOOD WOULD IT BE IF HAPPINESS IS THERE FOR US FOREVER!"

2006-09-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

woolala...haha...
today went back to school alone to pass up the giro form...the trip back to school was real boring cos the there was no one to talk...i took 1 hour plus to travel to school but then the time that i spend in school was barely less than 15 mins... haiz...wasted my transport fee. so after leaving school, take train again to bugis to meet zhenqi and lineng for the family concert decorations.haha...we laughed until siao while discussing or i should say that only zhenqi and me was laughing most of the time...hahaha...we took only 1 hour plus to discuss and after that went shopping with zhenqi...but then money is always the problem that makes shopping so hard cos cannot buy anything..haha...

i hate being alone and i have to learn to be independent...that's the conclusion that i have got when i was doing some self-reflection yesterday...it seems like i have been depending on friends too much already....it's nice to have friends to be dependent on but then sometimes i must also be use to doing things alone...

YEAH!! tomorrow going malaysia already...haha...hope time don't pass so fast when i am there...let the time slow down or stops when i am there...haha...what crazy craps am i talking...LOL! think i am going crazy soon...haha...omg! haven started packing my bag yet...guess later have to sleep late to pack up...hehe...

"WHY IS LETTING GO SO DIFFICULT?"

2006-09-05T13:07:00.000+08:00

fun kbox outing!hahaha....

what a boring day~~
today stayed at home for the whole day and there is nothing for me to do. haiz..but better enjoy the days that i am staying at home lest i will regret it when school reopens.tomorrow might be a busy day for me cos i have promised to help zhenqi up with the family concert decorations..have to meet them 2pm at bugis mrt station to find materials. but before that have to go back to school to pass up the giro form.it's so mafan! hahaha...omg! still have not decided what time i have to leave house tomorrow..haha...that's the problem with poor time management cos you won't ever know what is the actual time that you have to leave house and especially when you have to travel so far...haha...later have to ask friends again!hehehe...

why am i always doing things that i am regretting?? why can't the decision that i have made work out for me?? haiz...i am always making decisions so fast without giving it a second thought.that's why i am always regretting!

i can't wait for the malaysia trip! 1 and a half more days to go and i will be in malacca...hahaha...YEAH!! looking forward to it for so long already... it's the time to spend more time with my family and the time for me to enjoy..i am not finding the country bored though i have been there for ample times already..hehe...

"HUMANS ARE NOT PERFECTIONIST BUT WHY DO PEOPLE STILL EXPECT SO MUCH FROM THEM??"

2006-09-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!
this morning went kbox with the moviefreaks...it was fun and we sang alot...haha...unfortunately, gen can't join us cos she have school in the morning..but nvm, cos there will still be a next time!hehe...after singing, we went to marine parade to shop and i must say that the shopping centre is real big.we shopped until siao...hahaha...after that, went home taking 15 and we was so crazy in the bus..laughing non-stop especially when suzanne and shijuan always argue..haha! but it was a wonderful day...hehe!

oh ya..congrats to huiyun and eileen cos they got jobs already =) haiz...i also want to work but my malaysia trip is blocking the dates!!arghhh...so many people are working now and i feel like a lazy pig not working at all..hahaha...

it seems like i have been posting a lot of sad posts recently...haha...but dun ever think that i am going to say about happy feelings today cos there is really nothing that is making me feel happy recently...i just find it so hard to express words to people! they either don't understand what i am saying or they are just feeling that i am saying something sarcastic when i am actually not...haiz...why is living so hard?

"LIFE IS NEVER EVER FAIR ESPECIALLY WHEN PEOPLE ARE TREATED IN DIFFERENT WAYS!!"

2006-09-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

today was a fun day! haha...
this afternoon, went to pasir ris park to cycle with suzanne, huiyun and shijuan...meet suzanne to have lunch first because shijuan and huiyun intend to cycle to the park,so me and suzanne have to meet first to travel by bus to the park. we had japanese food at whitesands foodcourt and it taste really nice..after eating, we waited for a long time for huiyun and shijuan to reach but then we waited until so sian so we decided to go play bowling first at downtown east. but when we reach downtown, we found out that the bowling centre has close due to some renovation so no choice but to wait for shijuan and huiyun at the bus stop..after they reach, we went to rent bicycle for 2 hours costing us $10 but it was fun! so after cycling, shijuan and huiyun cycle back home and suzanne and i went to take train back..

i really don't know how should i view life.. sometimes,just feel that life isn't going the way that it should goes...maybe the way that i am viewing life now is in the wrong way! haiz...why is life so vex? having to think of so many things everyday...

"MAYBE IT IS BETTER TO LET GO! ALTHOUGH IT MIGHT BE HARD BUT TIME WILL SLOWLY LET EVERYTHING FADE AWAY..."

2006-08-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

haha...the hotdog got so many sauces...LOL!

my watch...

the watch that we bought...hehe!

Happy Teachers' Day~~
yups! today went back to secondary school with suzanne, huiyun, genevieve and huihui to visit teachers. saw some of our ex-schoolmates and some of them have really changed a lot...hahaha...so watched the performance for a while and went to see our teachers. but then only manage to see our maths teacher cos the whole hall was so crowed. after that, went to take train with huiyun, genevieve and suzanne cos they wanna go cinneleisure to watch snakes on a plane and i went back to school for violin practice. the violin practice was really tiring cos we have to practice from 2-6pm.i was feeling so sleepy and
hungry by the end of the practice. i still can't play well...haiz...i am just so tired already. so after the practice, took train back home alone and the train trip was just so terrible. it was so squeezy and there was no place to sit.OMG! just feel like dying when taking the train.the train is so stuffy until i have headaches.haiz...why don't i just die at that moment then there will be no more worries for me le...LOL!! i am just saying things that are soo irresponsible to my life...so please ignore this sentence if u are reading this post..hehe...

yesterday, went for job interview with eileen and huiyun at woodlands. the job is about working at the food expo for 5 days and the pay is quite good.. the people that interviewed us was also good cos we were interviewed together and she only told us what we have to do during working..but then the person will only confirm us whether we have this job next monday..i was not considered for this job cos i am going malaysia during the 2 of the 5 days period and they only want people that can work for the continuous 5 days..haiz...so wasted if not i can earn money for my daily expenses already..arghhh...getting money from dad is so difficult..yesterday,try getting about 10 bucks from dad and he was complaining that i am spending too fast already..haiz...why can't money just drop from the sky??hahaha...so after the interview, we went to shop at causeway point..tried out clothes and when we wanted to leave the place,we saw a pasar malam beside the shopping centre and each of us bought a watch..haha...

"SAD MOMENTS HAPPEN MORE TIMES THAN HAPPY MOMENTS!!"

2006-08-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

the time now is 12.54am, which means that things that happen just now is consider as what happen yesterday already...haha...so yesterday, went back to school for violin practice from 6-9pm.it was so tiring cos it was at night then we have to practice and practice and practice..haha...but practice makes perfect sooo i must not be complaining about it...

i want to go cycling...haha...huiyun and me actually thought that there will be nothing on yesterday, so we decided to go cycling with eileen and shijuan...we have already planned where to go to cycle and the last thing that we have to decide is the time.but who knows when we was about to decide the time, huiyun suddenly say that there will be a urgent violin practice so everything was just cancelled.arghhh...why must it be like that when everything is planned already..haha...but never mind cos it is a long holiday so one day we will be going one rite?haha...

at this point of time,i just don't know what i am feeling..guess i am just having moodswings or am i suffering from depression?? LOL!! haha...just wondering why is it so hard to be happy? is life just full of miseries and all the things that we have to do is to suffer with the miseries that we have? why can't everything change to the good?

"HOW I WISH THAT TIME CAN STOP AT THE HAPPY MOMENTS THAT I HAVE!!"

2006-08-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

i am so tired!!
today went to school for a event that trains us to be a banker during a game of monopoly. the event was from 10am-3pm and we played 3 rounds of monopoly in total.haha...it was quite fun cos it seems like i have not been playing monopoly for years. so after the monopoly session, went home with eileen and huiyun and we was feeling quite bored. so we was planning whether we should go out. actually planned to go kbox but then the time was about 3+pm so if we wanna pay for the session which is from 2-7pm, we will be losing out 1 hr.in the end, we went to tampines safra to play bowling.it was the second time that i am playing bowling.haha...it was quite fun and we played a total of 5 games which costed us about $14.20.haha...it was quite a large sum of money man.LOL! but then it is okay cos we indeed have fun playing.haha...

just wondering how will i be spending my holidays! i feel like going out to play but then it seems like there is so much things for me to do during the holidays and there is nothing much for me to play also. most of the things that i can think of is singing and shopping.LOL! i really don't know where can i go. huiyun did mention that there is a cafe in singapore that allows us to play board games and the games that the cafe provide can't be find in singapore...it looks so tempting to me.haha...hope can go there soon.LOL!!

"LIFE IS JUST SO NOT BEAUTIFUL WHEN YOU ARE NOT THERE!!"

2006-08-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

OMG! i am bored to death now. staying at home really have nothing to do except for watching tv. yesterday went out with huiyun,shuyi and shijuan to buy clothes. all of us did bought something back home.haha...i bought two shirts and one shorts and now i am bankrupt already... those three clothes cost me about $50. so today, stayed whole day at home doing nothing and is real bored man...tomorrow going back to school for some BE event. i also dunno what is it about but just hope that it will be fun!

i am just wondering why i am living in this world. it seems like i still have not find my purpose of living yet.i just don't know why i am living in this world and seriously, what am i going to do in the future? i am such a failure! i have been living for 18 years already and now i am still asking myself this question.LOL! just what is happening to me?

i sometimes hate the feelings that you are giving me! it's like i am in the wrong when i am talking with you and you just ended everything with the word 'whatever'. i just hate it and it seems like you don't know that i am hating the way that you reacted. maybe you will feel that it is just nothing but then i am having the feeling that you are not the 'you' that i have known...

"HUMANS THINKINGS ARE JUST SO UNPREDICTABLE! IT'S JUST SO HARD TO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE THINKING AND HOW THEY ARE FEELING TOWARDS YOU..."

2006-08-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

finally today is the start of the holidays!
finished the btc test yesterday but don't know can i do well anot cos while doing the paper, my mind blanked out at some questions. just hope that i can score well. so after the paper, went out with eileen,ivan and zhirong to bugis to shop around. just wondering why guys hate shopping.haha...so after shopping for a while, went to watch snakes on a plane. the movie is very exciting.haha...but there was some real disgusting parts.u will know what it is after u watch it...LOL...after watching, it was 9+ and we headed back home.

today, went out with tinghui and eileen to kbox to sing.haha...we sang for 5 long hours but then we still find it quite short. my voice was really sore after singing but then it was fun cos we get to sing a lot of songs. after singing,went eating in the food court at marina square. we ate western where tinghui ate chicken chop and me and eileen ate grilled fish. we really regret eating grilled fish cos the fish is so small lor...waste our $5.50...LOL!!

tomorrow will be going out with huiyun,shijuan and shuyi to buy clothes. haha...but then i am really going broke...LOL!! planning to buy two clothes from giordano and OP but the price is quite expensive. just wondering should i buy anot.haha...this few days have been going out alot already until when i went home, my mom was complaining why am i going out so many times. but luckily she did not ban me from going out tomorrow...haha...

"BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES ALWAYS END FAST AND NOW EVERYTHING IS JUST NOT BEAUTIFUL AT ALL!!"

2006-08-23T17:21:00.000+08:00

finally done with english oral...but i dun think i am going to do well in it.cos the conversation part i was crapping things into it.please GOD, just give me a C6.i don't want to fail english two times. and guess wat, one of the invigilator was my secondary school history teacher but then she was not the one grading me.haha...actually there was two invigilator from my secondary school but then one of the teacher was at another group so he didn't get to see us. now still haven finish studying btc.this morning woke up and i really have no mood to study.guess i am too nervous about the oral.later have to memorise like crazy already! can't wait for tomorrow cos we will be having our last paper.haha..after that can play already! just wondering should i get a job anot.but then there seems to be a lot of violin practice going on. haiz...blog again tomorrow after i finish my btc paper...

"Times of luxury do not last long, but pass away very quickly; nothing in this world can be long enjoyed"

2006-08-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

i am feeling real terrible now! it seems like many things is troubling me and i just feel like crying out loud. i want to look at the bright sides and stay happy but then it is real difficult. 'IT IS REAL,REAL,REAL DIFFICULT!!!' just wondering what is the purpose of living. sometimes, i really want to end my life and let all the miseries end but then it is real impossible cos there are so many things that i cherish will be left behind and i also cannot confirm if there will be no miseries after i die.LOL!! LIFE REALLY SUXS... i don't want to live anymore!! everything just don't go smoothly and i really hate it. people around me are also not feeling so good but just hope everything can change to the better and let's stay happy always: ) tomorrow going to have english oral and i am real scare..so many what if qns are appearing in my brain now.what if the conversation topic they give i don't have much ideas to answer? and what if the picture description i don't know how to describe? and what if i cannot read smoothly for my passage? OMG! there is so many 'what if' appearing but hope that everything will goes well tomorrow.off to sleep now so i will not lose my voice tomorrow.

"MAYBE LIFE IS JUST FATED TO BE LIKE THAT AND BEING WITH YOU IS JUST NOT A PART OF MY LIFE!!"

2006-08-21T19:11:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!
mes paper finally finish so now left with btc paper which is on thur...i am going to play games till crazy tonight.LOL...so long never play already. will start the btc study session tml ba. today's paper was quite okay.the hints that lecturer have given us did come out.but the problem is i forgot most of the points that i have memorised. haha...just hope i can pass! met qihuan,my primary school friend today.haha...saw her at the clementi mrt station but she can't really recognise me. haha...but luckily she can remember my name if not will be so embarrasing if she say she dunno me.LOL! it's been quite a long time since we met each other...abt 6 years already. will blog until here today! later going to watch healing hands 3. this is the lastest hong kong drama that i have been catching.haha...is really nice. just find that all doctors are brave. willing to use their precious time to save people's lifes.

"My life is a simple thing that would interest no one. It is a known fact that I was born and that is all that is necessary"